life is recovering for me..
now i know y she makin such a big fuss over it..
cos i and mari did had a talk and happen to talk abt them..but unfortunately they came to know abt it...things juz got worse..cos i really heard what she said.haiz..but forget it..nobody believe me..take it as my fault then..although we did promise tat we wont tell anyone..but yet we betray each other...if only they hasn't care abt wad we said and juz live life as per normal..and shouldnt qns our friendship..i guess our friendship will bond..many a time, i felt trapped in e grp cos i m extremely disturbed of how suspicious of my friendship with them... ever since mari's case with angela were closed..i no longer feel trapped...but they still qns abt my friendship....
if only.they could be more sensitive towards me and not judge me..things wouldnt had turn out so bad..if only i myself could change for e better..i wish i could...
and i will......
i m feeling depressed..yes i m...so sad tat i could almost cry very now and then...i know there r still ppl who are tryin to make me happy..thanks..i juz hope i m better =)...this pain had affected my concentration actually...
i think i m going to flunk my ss seq...tears* ss had being my strongest sub..but because of all these matters and ppl tat say tat they didnt like me and all...i was affected tremounously..y?why m i feeling this way?....
i wish u were here..my prince..cos i need u..but where are u? u seem to be so far away...when will i see u?when will u appear in my dreams and take me away from all these excrusiating pains...where are my true friends?i need u guys...tears* i m so lostt..so alone...i dunno..i juz wan my life to be beautiful..is it so hard? now it seems like there are more things hidden inside me..i wish i could juz let it go..but i cant..i dunno y...i m too shy to do it...
i shall juz indulged myself in darkness..waiting for light.........
11/29pm
