hey there...

suddenly i juz felt..i m easily tempted...u guys should be glad tat i stay away from alcohol for quite a few months..but then now its like..i dunno..i juz felt all my closest friends are drifting away, probably cos of o level..i simply had no time for them..despite me getting along pretty ok with my classmates(5/1,5/2,5/3).now.i still felt something amiss...wad is it? was it their love? or tat both of us are juz busy with our own life...?

suddenly it seems so time-wasting..i dunno..i m tempted now..tempted for wad an 18 year old may wan..haiz..but duno la dun wanna think so much and neither will i say anything ...yup.

anyway..bishal came back!! haa.my hot bastard..haha.kiddding juz good friends..lol...he be flying to UK after staying here awhile..yup..oh manz gonna miss him.. :(

anyway ya..haiz..everyone is flying..how bout me?? still stuck in this GLOBAL CITY...and thinking of someone i shouldnt think...he's nothing but trouble yet he is constantly on my mind..i wish i can juz forget him and move on....but then i still had to let him know..or maybe he know...i dunno...wish life was better...

everything seem so wrong at times, but then again it seems so right...we nv know..haiz..i shall end here..i m fine..no worries.. =) juz speaking up..yup..at least i felt more better now..lol. 1.41am

spiritually_yours at 1:31 AM

listening to: high school musical soundtrack

hey ppl..good evening..now 11.35pm lol...anyway...ha..i cant stand some ppl who have senseless brains...juz think..in this world we can still see this kind of ppl~~!! and its a pity tat our school had this kind of ppl...cos imagine..u left e group, it probably means tat u dun wan to have any connection with them..and they are juz yr friends, they will at least ask concernly...but if they are evil,they will say out all those evil stuffs abt u..then when months later..some ppl in tat group came to talk to u..u thought ok..everything was fine..juz friends.trying to forget and forgive..e next min u know...they start to backstab u even though u nv go with them anymore..and wadever minor things u do, they blow up e whole matter..worst is tat..they critise yr idol!..and then when u get angry..they get angry with u too..u see la..who start first???.now i know..the girls who are getting back to me cos they wanna know things abt me and would then critise for all they care..and start all those stupid rumours again....i didnt even wanna do anything with them..i only talk to them when they wan me to..cos i know..the friendship i had with them has broken up..its lost...it will only come back when they learn to be more forgiving, more understand and more sensible in they way they are doing things..and i shant fell for their tricks ever again!! i will not tell them alot of things..i shall be sharp in my words to them..they are damned too much...!! ugh!!!


anyway had been going out with a few of my classmates..yup..haha...hmm..these few days..had been pretty busy for me..dunno why..haaaaa..and i had too many things to do...lol...ya these few days i been making new friends too..but i simply had to tell them..sorry i cant hang around with u guys..really..lol....anyway...good to know them..haha..

and..also these few days i been thinkin of tat special someone..i dunnnno why..but i wish to know too...haaaa...there are also time, i wanted to juz kill myself...like get knocked down by car or something..cos i juz felt out of place at time..haiz..dunno la..juz tryin to be myself at times..hee...i lov chloe!! haha..thanks for being there with me...heeee...ok gotta go now..ciao.. 12.01am

spiritually_yours at 11:30 PM

hey there!!!

ok great she is gone...now i can say..alot of things happen actually...first was my sister..oh manz..the day i came late to school cos the whole family overslept...and chloe had been nice to wait for me..thanks..!! i owe u big time~~!!! anyway..we decided to tell e prefects..e bus break down...ya..ok we didnt get booked..and so unfortunately..when i told my sis wad happen..she juz got pisssssed..like fuck la..! i tell her cos i trust her as my sis...and i regard her tat..and then she went to tell my mum...and luckily my mum didnt say much...and then e next thing i know..she went to tell mrs koh..oh manz..i was like..wad e hell..juz because she got booked and both me and chloe didnt..muz she get back at me like tat? come on manz..wads e point and wait a min..did i say SHE IS MY SISTER???...and if mrs koh ever take this seriously...she is going to suspense me or sth..i didnt wanna get chloe in trouble ok...now tat my sis done tat..i felt so guilty cos chloe was in too...damned! i felt really bad la..juz becas of my folly...and for me trusting my sis..i got her in trouble as well...i can never trust my sister anymore..all she ever does was to complain..when I MYSELF DIDNT TELL ON HER AT ALL..AND WAIT A MINUTE...SHE IS MY YOUNGER SISTER!!...ugh!! i dun wan say so much...cos i aint gonna spread some rumours and all..i dun wan to be this kind of person....!! it really sucks alot when u become like tat ok?...now i know..i got a very badstab sis...who do things behind my back...she will happily go and tell mrs koh tat e whole family woke up late..so..mrs koh will surely know i lied..wad e hell la!! y muz she go and tell..?? i trust her so much and yet she is doing this kind of thing to HER OLDER SISTER..she never think abt me at all...!! fuck off la!! ugh!!i cant stand it...i dun wan say anymore le...
the time i went back for racial harmony...i wore sari..borrowed from nana, remembered??lol..and then when having recess..somehow everyone started singing..cos some dj from out of nowhere came to our school and they started playing all e latest songs..and then E WHOLE CANTEEN STARTED SINGING ALONG!!haha...so cool la..then our principal actually came down to see..but she didnt say anythin..then cheryl was telling us.. :"probably e principal muz be wondering y we sing so soft during national anthem..and then when come to singing pop songs..we sing very loud." haha....true...lol
anyway...yesterday was speech day..quite boring..bernice,van lim, ren shan..and a few other came back...quite ok la..i went with cheryl for lunch..ya..so fun.haha..cos when e guests abt to clear e place..the band started playing "cant take my eyes off u" and i think i heard only e sec5 batch started singing(yup i m included!haha!!) it was soo funny!! haha...we were so called e noisiest bunch ba..haha...and then wanted to take pic with my juniors..but by e time i went to e dance room..they are already gone.. =( so sad..nvm ..i will find them next time... and then went to meet wenfang,rongfa and kaiern..actually meeting them was a last min decision.haha.I THOUGHT LUCIFY WILL be at j8..so unlucky..they aint there..haha.but i still meet them anyway..haha.kaiern hair longer le..oh manz!! i miss them so much...!! haha..ever since they gone poly..it seem so hard to meet them now..haha..and i remembered sth..i still owe them money..lol..i will pay them back soon!! haha...and then went home..i slept at 10pm..haha..tired la..

anyway..today was family photo shoot..haha.quite ok la...dun look like me though..lol..will put up pic soon..yup yup..take care peeks!! 12.35am

spiritually_yours at 12:17 AM

yeah finally!! can write post...
stupid blogger!!

ha..anyway..these few days..it seems like everyone feeling upset..dunno why..be it friends or family or even studies....however for me, i dun seem to feel this way..i seem to be happier lei..even though sometimes i do feel abit left out..but now so far ok ba...hope everythin turn out fine for ppl feeling this way....haha...

anyway tml is racial harmony day..lol.actually planning to wear house t-shirt..but i dunno why for some reason..i actually go and borrow from nana the sari...haha so going to wear lor..

oh ya yesterday chatted with ben and ivey..lol..so funny la..although i dunno why ben kept very isolated yesterday..probably he is playing his game..and he keep on giving us those noises tat u may find when ppl play game..like.. :"yes!!" "argh!!" "haiz"..then he will go "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!" then me and ivey was like..:"wah lao noisy lei!!"..but he dun seem to care..dots..ha..and then when ivey went off awhile, he will keep on tellin me:"so sianz! haiz, i got nth to do!" i was like dots dots dots all e way...lol...

then today...so SWAY AR!!haha..when i took bus to thomson..to change to another bus to go home...i met ben and his friend at e same bus stop..wow ..so wonderful!! ha..then he was like... :" hello, i met weixiang's friend in e bus,i forget his name"..then i give the expression like :"huh?wad u talkin abt?" then when e bus past me..i realise wad he is talkin abt.the friend i know. and he know too...and guess wad..that friend is also ben's friend!!tuition mate!! and he dunno his name!! how wonderful!! haaa..then i msg him:"weixiang's friend is called low zhichyim, and he also yr tuition friend.lol" ha..so mean....actually juz now in school i was thinking abt them ba..and so conincientally i met them again..lol..really.. how small this world can be..haiz..

ha..i told zhichyim juz now..how much i miss those days...and i ask him if he misses too..he was like..ya..sometimes..haha..then i told him tat..all of us muz have an tuition outing..lol..

cos i know during those days when i had tuition with them, i enjoy e most..cos can say quite naughty ar..always talk loudly..talk craps..nv pay attention..ha..until our maths teacher got so pissed and then zhichyim and weixiang will imitate and tease him..they so mean la!! haha..then ben sittin in front..will come and disturb me and my girlfriends..then after maths lesson..i and my girlfriends always had to protect ourselves cos ben will come and disturb us again by taking our rubber bands!! so mean right he??? anyway..those were e days...how i wish it can go back again...

i know its not going to happen again..but i do believe it will happen if we create new memories.. yeah =) they were my strength and support at tat time of moment for me to be e girl i always m..i love them as much as i love e ppl in my life now.haha..ok enough of all these..better go and sleep..lol..night!! haha... 11.50pm

spiritually_yours at 11:26 PM

hey bloggie..here to blog again

oh juz now met up with chloe after school..haha.sort of chill around our estate...lol.so lame..but i like it cos get to play with the swing..then saw one granny with a baby..baby so cute!!! hahaa...baby like me!! haha..lame..

tml i m going to have practical..haha...on seed germination and food tests..haha..ok ..juz now i practice my drawing on seed...realise tat actually my drawings not tat bad..and y do i shiver tat time.. dots dots...oh ya..chatted with him juz now..ha..so fun la..cos finally we actually didnt quarrel..lol..with all e "dots" "dots" thing..but he working..late for work..haha.sad tat his phone spoil but its ok..still cant talk..haha..

i dunno why..i know i should move on..but i still feel a sense of comfort whenever we talk...i think it will be a hard time for me to get over him...haiz..but i didnt wanna care much now...i guess he didnt wanna care much too..so ya..i like my life now...all i know tat.my feelings is still strong for him...no matter where we are...
nth much to say...

juz wanna say some things to some ppl in my life now..cos they are feeling troubled....

ivey---dun be sad la...k?if u say tat u will flank yr exam..it means i will flank mine too..remember tat my chinese aint as good as yrs...really...if u wanna die..lets die together..anyway..ah gong ask u not to be sad..cos he told me he confirm flank..haha..see.! and juz now i ask him abt his situation. like oral...and realise tat..he is worse than yrs..so dun worry la.. still got ppl die with u..haaa..juz hope u be happy la..k? =)

yvon&cheryl- hope u guys cheer up too..no matter where u are...take each friendship of yrs seriously..cos its a once in lifetime..we can be friends..and i treasure our friendship as much as u guys should treasure each other.. =) i believe u all be fine la..haha..very lame...

ok gotta go le..juz wanna say i m very happy..!! haha...thanks..!! love u lots!!! although we aint together...

tired le..nite!! 11.12pm

spiritually_yours at 10:54 PM

hi bloggie!!

haha today i STUDIED!! yes get it? i STUDIED!!haha...first time..lol..actually was doing abit of maths yesterday and today chem..lol..i did moles..

i spent like 4 hours doing two excercise of it!!! haha..this is mad manz..first time..i laid my hands on MOLES since e past 2 years...haha...CHEERS FOR ME PPL!!haha..ok la..so far i get e concept ba...will work on it more often..muz thanks my sis manz..

lol..there this thing abt chemistry...2 years ago..i also had mrs pillai as my chem teacher..and guess wad? i had nv listen to her lesson at all..cos tat time.i think practically e whole class nv listen to her..and she always picking on me and my group..lol..cos we always e one talkin and crapping around...and then when come to tests..i still manage to pass..lol...

and now..i will try and pass even though i m listen to her lessons now..haa..
dunno why la..this is e only sub plus other two which i can pass...dots...
actually should say I MUZ PASS..haha...yyup..gotta go...mother nagging..

oh ya..juz wanna tell u guys i m fine..haha..yup..aint gonna let any bad ppl affect my life....


one of my friend told me on msn juz now:"u look as bright and cheerful as always.=)"


haha..thanks..lol....i will remain like tat...i like to brighten ppl life... dun wanna leave any bad things on them..juz wan them to be happy..cos if they happy i m happy too.. hee..anyway..i get to knw new friends nowadays..haha ..dunnnnno why also..lol...

gotta go..today is O LEVEL CHINESE LISTENING COMPRE..!! HAHA...hope cheryl dun sleep during the exam...and hope chloe dun sleep too..lol..and if she's seeing this.CONCENTRATE ON E EXAM..lol...anyway all the best to myself and everyone taking the exam!! ALL E BEST!!...haha...

spiritually_yours at 11:47 PM

i dun like e way i m doing!! get out ! get out!! get out!!

ugh!! i m so trapped..!! i m so trapped!! help me!! where's my pillow?tears* i need u!!!!!

i m sorryy......tears* i dunnnno....maybe some ppl are right abt saying me...tat i need someone to protect me...i always acted myself as a strong person..but deep inside me..the feelings aint there...tears*

i hate u!! i hate u! i hate myself!!i m dying here!! ugh!!


foolishness!!!


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spiritually_yours at 2:00 AM