hello people..haha

today i took class photos...hmm ok la...
kind of in a foul mood today..i also dunno why...i have upload e picture...feel free to go check it here....haha









ya...dunno why la..juz in foul mood..ha..
alot of memories kept flashin in my head...especially..vincent.my ex..i guess becuz he look so much like slyverster sim..haiz...
from e start when sly came up in singapore idol..i didnt like him...cos he look like my ex..ugh! ... i dunno la..

ha..he look so much like him lor!!! wah lao..but anyway over le..
haha i m quite happy..lol..
ya sort of..
Os coming...i hope i can coop up my work..haiz..
i dun wanna let anyone down..ya...
alright i gotta go now...eating dinner time..haha.8.13pm

spiritually_yours at 7:56 PM

i m so dead beat.....
juz came home from my sister's competition in her talent round segment for Little Ms Asia competition.haha..she got 1st prize and its a tall trophy..lol...
she danced...Rihana's SOS and Rain's sad tango......yup

haaha..i dunno la..juz felt alittle sad now... i dunno..its like...i dun understand..somehow.i felt betrayed..betrayed by some of my friends who promised to be there for me...but they juz not doing their part...its like..nowadays most of them are having their bad days.and not for me.....haizz....dunno la..guess its exam thats pullin us aparttt...i dun wanna say their names cos i dun wanna hurt them..i guess they had their reasons to be not there with me ba.. i juz felt empty i guess..ya.....

have u all wished that u had a friend who will always be there...like staying overnight at yr house..share problems..and best of all will always be there with u when u r in school...?so far, i had met a friend in school who will always be there with me in school..but she wasnt able to stay over..and yaaa..haizzzz...i noe most of ppl in school had already found tat one true friend tat they can always rely to...

for me, nah..i guess i m still searching..maybe it takes time i guess.....i had many good friends by my side, but i dun have a friend who can be there with me 24hours..who can understand me like totally...cos i always take different paths in life i guesss..haiz.how i wish life could tell me i had already found one and tat i still dunnno tat he or she existed..ha..

as for love, thats nth i can say now.cos i m not into any relationship now..i totally give up..yup..and i put this song in my blog is becuz of wad i think of love now....i m not going thru any trauma..neither m i going to stay up to wait for e special someone to call..neither m i going to think tat i will hate to see the person go......So ppl, guess u guys gotta wait until after Os then say..ha.
i m not missing anyone..i juz hate it..hate it tat everytime i was e one who always get hurt...and betrayed.betrayed by yr own loved ones..hate it when guys juz treat u like spare tyre... I HAD ENOUGH...SO STOP IT!!....

i think i promised someone i will try and write some happy stuffs in my blog, but it juz seem like thats not much happy stuffs i can write for nw..i try la..

haha..hmm..i m actually in love with RAIN,WEIBO,and some english groups..lol..they rocks my life now.....OH..and JOAKIM GOMEZZZZ..haa....yaaa..omg..how i wish they were there for me..lol...yup..alright..i going le..ciao!!
*my wish is to have a band of my own and started to sing this kind of songs....to express my feelings bettter..haa..and at least no one will look down on me..ha..i m tough girl manzzz!!

11.18pm

spiritually_yours at 10:59 PM

hey there how's my bloggie doing???

haha....well had exam and all..english sucky..chinese..er...dunno..lol..ss ok..maths?maths paper 1 sucky..maaths paper 2..easy like shit..haha..kidding..quite ok la..can do..2 more papers left..f&n and chem/bio mcq...oh ya science...hmm..wad can i say??
lol..i dun wanna say anything..haha...can do for bio..but chem i dunno wad to say..haha.....oh ya tell u something...for history exam...i study e wrong chapters!! but luckily i know e structured essay qns so well..lol...hope to score lor...actually to say our prelim this year was easier ba...

but then i think i wont do well for this prelim too.lol...
but so far i m quite happy la..even though i didnt make use of e study break..but for Os i will! yup, i m serious..

aud came over to my house yesterday..hee..chatted..talking abt life..and sort of teach me maths..ya.haha.."sort of" ...lol...she still so little girl!!! lol...even though she older..but i still love her so...lol...I LOVE U AUD!!haha..thanks for always being there with me...heee

hmm..wad u wan me to say?nth much la..haha..juz tat life now is pretty alright...yup

and ya i change to this song, cos its really very close and personal to me..its so true la..i m not missin u anymore..so stop thinking tat i m missing u..probably a few days or week, i will change songs again..haha..

ya..so do enjoy manz..so glad tat o level coming..haha..waiting to be FREE!!!haha..and fad went jamming yesterday..so cool!! i wanna go too..!!! haaaaaa....

alright gotta go..miss ya ppl!!~ sweet 3.40pm

spiritually_yours at 3:20 PM

hey everyone..come in to blog again..

lol i guess i show u some videos of joakim and paul..haha..
anyway... life had been pretty good..i can say i didnt really study for prelim..cos i do not have e mood to..yup........but so far..it was pretty alright for me..i felt more confident though..lol.

anyway..sat and sun.. i been hanging out with my cousin, joey and pammy..Miss them manz..lol..sat, pam called me and asked me out for a snack or sth..cos she juz took her car..ya..so we actually went all e way to e bukit timah area there to buy mac..in her car..lol..her car was beautiful...it was like a mini cooper..juz tat its spacious..yup..then we called patrina..and for one moment i thought she went on e world tour or something.then yesterday found out..oh...she went to duck tour.haha..and both my cousin and i were like..in curiousity.why e hell did she even take e ducktour for?lol

oh then yesterday, she ask me out again..so she also called damien out..haha.so we all went out together..we went all e way to milenia walk to have lunch..yup..hmm..then later we went to bandai road there..e old thomson road..it used to be a racing track..yup..so we had a fun time..driving there..haha.cos its juz one whole track..yup yup..lol..its rocking fun..haa.love them lots..haa

hmm..i noe there had been a few spammers in my blog..but unfortunately i do not noe why they had to spam me..did i do anything wrong?? so far...i dun think i myself did anything wrong..cos if it is, i guess its my character that u see me as.. yup..if u know me well enough u will know..i m not angry with anyone except for tat bloody bastard..hah..nah..he juz my good pal now..yup...

sometimes people might mistaken me as been a backstabber..or flirt or something..but nah! never anymore! yup.. i m not a flirt..i treat every guy friends of mine as good pals..juz like i had a friend named vincent..he is frm wenfang's school...yup..so we always hang out in mixed groups..yup..there was a time i went out with him alone to watch movie..yup..haha.he is my close friend! cos we always kept in touch on e phone and all..ya..we were close friends k?nth more nothing less..haa..

since 2004, i had always been with wenfang and her group after school..i will always go and find her and all..ya..and sometimes i would make friends with her classmates..ya..tats how i noe vincent..haha.went out together..so far, i can say i know almost e whole class of wenfang..lol..most of them had gone to poly, while two had went oversea..lol..ya so going to miss them..haa..i know they miss me too!! lol...i never like to backstab ppl..y should i? they are my friends..they share secrets with me..y?i used to..like HELLO! only this year! i do not understand y...things juz goes so bad this year.........gossip..backstabbing..conflicts..like come on la..get a life manz!! i seldom had conflict with ppl..only this year lor..u dun believe u can always ask my closest friends..and i m always e victim this year..haiz..mad ppl..ha..anyway glad over le..

juz wanna be friends with people now..yup..i m starting to build good friendship ba..probably i should juz give them more times to be familiarise with me i guesss..lol..take time manz..ha..anyway. i aint any hyporcrite or wad..but i m always contracdicting myself..dun worry its always a minor thing..like lets say..i dun like this in e first place, but after u show me its usefulness, i began to like it..lol..take today as example..haha..i dun really like sean paul song..then today fadhilah somehow got tat song stuck in e head..so she tallk abt it..so now i somehow got it stuck in my head........haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........
lame.....ya..she is one funky babe manz. i dun care wad other say abt her...she's fine to me..yup yup

oh..today english exam..i not sure i will pass..but then..i know my compo plot is kind of good i guess..haha.the title is abt "sacrifice" so i wrote abt a story abt a gal being jailed for something tat she didnt do..in e end she got to be hanged..cos she refused to admit..so e climate is tat.her mother came to her rescue..and actually admit for something tat both her daughter and herself didnt do.in the end e mother sacrifice her life juz for e daughter.mother's love.sad right?haha..but i think i going to flank it..cos i think i be going to have lots of grammar mistakes and my sentence structure..haha..compre was pretty boring..lol...but hopefully can pass lor..haaa...but it will be miracle if i pass..haha

yup yup..alright going to study now.had maths paper 1 and chem structured tml....ciao!! haa 3.21pm..

spiritually_yours at 2:26 PM

*~joakim's geek in e pink~*


*~Joakim's how deep is yr love~*


*~joakim's Better man~*

oh my gawd..so near my home manz!! haha...i stay around there too..lol..

*~Joakim's I m a believer~*

HE'S a cancerian?cool..pisces and cancerian match..lol..so i m pisces!! haha!

*~Joakim's I dun wanna Know~*

i love this song to e max!!nonetheless i like e way he expresses himself in e song..its beautiful.
*~Joakim's My Cherie Armour~*

smoothing tune....i like!! hee!

*~Paul's singing chinese song..Chun Cai~*

Paul sing chinese song..can u believe it???? lol...


7.31pm

spiritually_yours at 6:42 PM

juz wanna say somethin here..

u may burn e book...
i dun give a shit..
u hurt me enough..
u once said u love me, but u walk out of my life..
and u once said u be there 4 me, but now,it seems like u will juz walk out, in front of me..dun even care whether i would die e next moment
u are e one who left me crying throughout e whole two years..
after going thru so many rlp, it still all goes back to u....u were e only one who care...but its all so wrong now..
e day u didnt talk much, i began to hate u..
e day i know e truth, i hate u even more.
u were there when i need u as godcousin..but now it seem all so cold..

i was happy when we r together, its like a fairytale tat come true.
but after e word 'break' come up from yr mouth,e fairytale is juz imagination.. i was upset and angry for believing u.yet u still treat me good.
now its different..i noe y..i knoe it.
i used to hate to see u go..
but now i dun give a shit..
all i ever wan is yr friendship and not love.
cos u had hurt me too much..too much for me to take it...
and u aint e ben i used to know..
all i wish for u now, is stop treating e people around us cold cos u noe it yrself,they are innocent.
e problem lies with two of us..they treasure yr friendship with them..
i shall juz let u know tat..even if we get our friendship back, we wont be as warm as we used to be..but yr friendship with them and to them is important.take it to heart for once can?dun u always treasure friendship?so where is yr sense of pride..?
i dun wan to say tis anymore.i said my words now. ciao!
10.22pm

spiritually_yours at 10:03 PM

i hate it when everyone is doing this to me....when everyone is avoiding me..when all i wan is trying to be a good friend...i didnt mean to not to help anyone to do things..i was busy alright?literally!! yeah...

m i tat irritating?i tried not to..i juz wan 2 talk to someone..i tried to be there for u guys..have u?...

this really sux..anyway..yesterday was teacher's day..ya..so i juz went hope helping out.until candice came..thought i should juz spend some time with her..cos i know she wants me to.haha...so we went round e school looking for teachers and catching up with her..ya..then afterwhich..suddenly met steph yong and clarice..and they said they were looking for me..haha..so we head down together to find teachers..lol..somehow they made my day la..ha..cos i skipped PE...dunno y...probably it juz bring back memories of serene, me and candice..tat we used to play badminton during candice's turf..and somehow i felt rather disconnected with the current class..tats why i skipped..i really didnt mean it..i tried..to be friends..wanted to make close friends..ya..guess i was too quiet ba..and i aint tat good at badminton..so ya..haiz..met karmun..then help her take cones.and all...ya..then she went up...

so i stayed at e study area..talking to myself..haha.kiddin.was reading e monthly letters..lol..oh then met yvonne too..so luckily i had her..we went canteen to buy some food...lol..and e rest of e time..its like me walking around..lol..and then ya...came back...then after seeing some teachers..i went out with yong to orchard..go far east..see some clothes..lol..yong so funny..keep telling herself not to spend so much..haha..e whole time we looking at is nothing but goth-like clothes and accessories..oh manz..i think i m in love with this kind of clothes..lol..then met karmun,sab,howie,shuwen,jeannette..ya..lol..i was telling yong..next time if i m shopping for prom, i would never keep my eyes off e goth-like clothes and accessories..(i hope i wont buy those for prom..but if can i dun mind..haha.)..cos she was asking me wad will i be wearing for prom night..lol..

then i was tellin her also..I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO END!!...she was like.."ya i m quite happy tat school going to end for u..graduate manz!"haha..juz awaiting for e fun...

i guess..my friend was right..i seem to be pretty comfortable and happy when steph yong,clarice,rung and candice came back..i guess it some kind of closeness..actually..the whole time yesterday i was pretty moody...cos it seem like everyone seem to have their own close friend..but not for me..i felt abit left out..tears*...sometime it really hurts..but i juz kept quiet.and tried to stay happy..cos i didnt wanna e rest to be sad for me..neither do i wan them to think tat i m unreasonable..i help e class..ya..buy balloons..and put balloons in e bags..cos i felt since i m in tis class i had e right to do it...i must be responsible..we wanna make e class party work out.so everyone muz help..actually i do love my current class..guess i was a little quiet or shy to mix around..


ya..moody moody moody..until they came..i found light in my life..haha.its very enlighten to see them again..especially yong, candice, clarice and rung.. candice had always been there for me..one thing i like abt her is tat she always tell me this:"sam, dun worry, my phone will always be 24hours on for u guys"...it was sweet of her..she share her woes and i share mine with hers..it some chemistry between me and her..and we always take turns to call serene to wake up..haha..tat is if we r meeting her..(hey!we r not together k?she have stead...i m straight..lol!)..ya..and her motherly love towards us..and sometimes..a little forgetful.lol..

yong..it was the rough time we been thru..tat make us get closer..i remember when we were sec 3(i think!)..we both were in the bottom 5 in class..and we always pray for each other tat we will make it...and encouraging each other..somehow..becuz of tat we became close..and it was also thru cosplay we got closer..misunderstanding..she was also there..she was a good friend who always been there ..there's a time she said somethin to me :"u know tat time when u were having a rough time, i cant help u..i was like 'how?'how?' ??" that rough time was actually this year..so tats why she said she couldnt help...it was during school..yup.i was touched...oh..and when both me and yong made it..we were so happy..i cried..cos i cant believe it..feena thought i retain wad.so she give me tat:"haiz dun worry" kind of look..and pat me...lol..but then when yong and e rest saw my report book...they were like..:"u made it wad!! cry for wad, silly girl!"haha...oh manz miss those times..yong had also been a fun friend...always made my day.i do remember tat scretching cat drawing we used to draw during history...haha..but was kind of sad tat one of my classmate didnt make it..haiz.she also another good pal..although not tat close to her..but she always e class clown..lol..haiz..

clarice was my first friend when i came to saint marg sec..all those memories with her, it was wonderful..her blurnesss and my blurness made us a perfect partners in crime...haha...although she a down to earth kind of girl..she was a good friend, a friend who always encouraging u..and e one person tat make my heart boils!! haha..
one thing shocked me was clarice started pulling my arm on teacher's day eve..cos she never hold me before!! haha...she dragged me dunno go where..haha.yong and candice were like:"clarice, why are u pulling samantha's arm?"haa...

rung...my lover,my baby,my darling..yes she is my "stead".dunno how many years..since sec 3..so 3 years?..haha.i love her for her lameness jokes and acts..and she super cute!!i feel like pinching her everytime i see her..but i know she will pinch me back..so no point.haha..i dun wanna get pinch.!!haha...i remember..we were close during english lesson one time..u know wad she do?i was sitting quietly..sort of drawing on her book.haha.then she will try and pull my rubber band out of my hair..so my hair juz got messy!! so i gotta re-tie it..then while i was tieing my hair, she start to take out all my shoelaces in both of my school shoes!!see how naughty can she be..haha..then afterwhich then i have to repeat the process of tieing my shoelace and tieing my hair up a few times..ALL THANKS TO HER!! then sheila behind was like,:"samantha!!wad u doing huh?!"haha...i was like..:"is rung..not me!!" and rung will give tat i-didnt-do-it kind of look and start laughing at me.. dotssssssss....wow..wonderfully her!!she make my day la..make me feel loved by friends...lol..and used to sit beside her during class.and she always do things tat make me giggly..haha..we do share woes with one another yeah...
and she damned nice..she send me a valentine card on valentine's day this year..so sweet of her!!haaa...oh manz love her to bits!haha..


ya..today went out with serene..cos i dunno..feel like going tekka to eat..so call her out for lunch during my history break lor..haa..she is like my soulmate..cos we can read each other's mind..haha.we will always have tat i-knew-u-will-do-tis kind of character..cos we often tell one another..:"i knew it.."...its like u know wad e person is going to do next..or done already..so is pretty scary..haha..but she also e one who help me to wake up to reality..and ya..know her longer than most of people i know...so i guess tats why we r soul mates..lol..alot of things we done..and i muz thank her manz.cos she and e rest are e one who can tolerate my slowness..even though they did complain..haha.she was one calm girl..and always full of creatively..haha..all e nonsense la..haa...and recently she make me forget someone tat i have been holding on for very long..thanks gal..love u..muacks!!..thanks for today too!!

ya..those memories..hey..juz wanna say tat..i didnt mean to offend anyone on top k?juz wanna write my thoughts...find tat i should share it ba..wanna let go of it..
yup alright ciao..

spiritually_yours at 9:21 PM