i hate it when everyone is doing this to me....when everyone is avoiding me..when all i wan is trying to be a good friend...i didnt mean to not to help anyone to do things..i was busy alright?literally!! yeah...
m i tat irritating?i tried not to..i juz wan 2 talk to someone..i tried to be there for u guys..have u?...
this really sux..anyway..yesterday was teacher's day..ya..so i juz went hope helping out.until candice came..thought i should juz spend some time with her..cos i know she wants me to.haha...so we went round e school looking for teachers and catching up with her..ya..then afterwhich..suddenly met steph yong and clarice..and they said they were looking for me..haha..so we head down together to find teachers..lol..somehow they made my day la..ha..cos i skipped PE...dunno y...probably it juz bring back memories of serene, me and candice..tat we used to play badminton during candice's turf..and somehow i felt rather disconnected with the current class..tats why i skipped..i really didnt mean it..i tried..to be friends..wanted to make close friends..ya..guess i was too quiet ba..and i aint tat good at badminton..so ya..haiz..met karmun..then help her take cones.and all...ya..then she went up...
so i stayed at e study area..talking to myself..haha.kiddin.was reading e monthly letters..lol..oh then met yvonne too..so luckily i had her..we went canteen to buy some food...lol..and e rest of e time..its like me walking around..lol..and then ya...came back...then after seeing some teachers..i went out with yong to orchard..go far east..see some clothes..lol..yong so funny..keep telling herself not to spend so much..haha..e whole time we looking at is nothing but goth-like clothes and accessories..oh manz..i think i m in love with this kind of clothes..lol..then met karmun,sab,howie,shuwen,jeannette..ya..lol..i was telling yong..next time if i m shopping for prom, i would never keep my eyes off e goth-like clothes and accessories..(i hope i wont buy those for prom..but if can i dun mind..haha.)..cos she was asking me wad will i be wearing for prom night..lol..
then i was tellin her also..I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO END!!...she was like.."ya i m quite happy tat school going to end for u..graduate manz!"haha..juz awaiting for e fun...
i guess..my friend was right..i seem to be pretty comfortable and happy when steph yong,clarice,rung and candice came back..i guess it some kind of closeness..actually..the whole time yesterday i was pretty moody...cos it seem like everyone seem to have their own close friend..but not for me..i felt abit left out..tears*...sometime it really hurts..but i juz kept quiet.and tried to stay happy..cos i didnt wanna e rest to be sad for me..neither do i wan them to think tat i m unreasonable..i help e class..ya..buy balloons..and put balloons in e bags..cos i felt since i m in tis class i had e right to do it...i must be responsible..we wanna make e class party work out.so everyone muz help..actually i do love my current class..guess i was a little quiet or shy to mix around..
ya..moody moody moody..until they came..i found light in my life..haha.its very enlighten to see them again..especially yong, candice, clarice and rung.. candice had always been there for me..one thing i like abt her is tat she always tell me this:"sam, dun worry, my phone will always be 24hours on for u guys"...it was sweet of her..she share her woes and i share mine with hers..it some chemistry between me and her..and we always take turns to call serene to wake up..haha..tat is if we r meeting her..(hey!we r not together k?she have stead...i m straight..lol!)..ya..and her motherly love towards us..and sometimes..a little forgetful.lol..
yong..it was the rough time we been thru..tat make us get closer..i remember when we were sec 3(i think!)..we both were in the bottom 5 in class..and we always pray for each other tat we will make it...and encouraging each other..somehow..becuz of tat we became close..and it was also thru cosplay we got closer..misunderstanding..she was also there..she was a good friend who always been there ..there's a time she said somethin to me :"u know tat time when u were having a rough time, i cant help u..i was like 'how?'how?' ??" that rough time was actually this year..so tats why she said she couldnt help...it was during school..yup.i was touched...oh..and when both me and yong made it..we were so happy..i cried..cos i cant believe it..feena thought i retain wad.so she give me tat:"haiz dun worry" kind of look..and pat me...lol..but then when yong and e rest saw my report book...they were like..:"u made it wad!! cry for wad, silly girl!"haha...oh manz miss those times..yong had also been a fun friend...always made my day.i do remember tat scretching cat drawing we used to draw during history...haha..but was kind of sad tat one of my classmate didnt make it..haiz.she also another good pal..although not tat close to her..but she always e class clown..lol..haiz..
clarice was my first friend when i came to saint marg sec..all those memories with her, it was wonderful..her blurnesss and my blurness made us a perfect partners in crime...haha...although she a down to earth kind of girl..she was a good friend, a friend who always encouraging u..and e one person tat make my heart boils!! haha..
one thing shocked me was clarice started pulling my arm on teacher's day eve..cos she never hold me before!! haha...she dragged me dunno go where..haha.yong and candice were like:"clarice, why are u pulling samantha's arm?"haa...
rung...my lover,my baby,my darling..yes she is my "stead".dunno how many years..since sec 3..so 3 years?..haha.i love her for her lameness jokes and acts..and she super cute!!i feel like pinching her everytime i see her..but i know she will pinch me back..so no point.haha..i dun wanna get pinch.!!haha...i remember..we were close during english lesson one time..u know wad she do?i was sitting quietly..sort of drawing on her book.haha.then she will try and pull my rubber band out of my hair..so my hair juz got messy!! so i gotta re-tie it..then while i was tieing my hair, she start to take out all my shoelaces in both of my school shoes!!see how naughty can she be..haha..then afterwhich then i have to repeat the process of tieing my shoelace and tieing my hair up a few times..ALL THANKS TO HER!! then sheila behind was like,:"samantha!!wad u doing huh?!"haha...i was like..:"is rung..not me!!" and rung will give tat i-didnt-do-it kind of look and start laughing at me.. dotssssssss....wow..wonderfully her!!she make my day la..make me feel loved by friends...lol..and used to sit beside her during class.and she always do things tat make me giggly..haha..we do share woes with one another yeah...
and she damned nice..she send me a valentine card on valentine's day this year..so sweet of her!!haaa...oh manz love her to bits!haha..
ya..today went out with serene..cos i dunno..feel like going tekka to eat..so call her out for lunch during my history break lor..haa..she is like my soulmate..cos we can read each other's mind..haha.we will always have tat i-knew-u-will-do-tis kind of character..cos we often tell one another..:"i knew it.."...its like u know wad e person is going to do next..or done already..so is pretty scary..haha..but she also e one who help me to wake up to reality..and ya..know her longer than most of people i know...so i guess tats why we r soul mates..lol..alot of things we done..and i muz thank her manz.cos she and e rest are e one who can tolerate my slowness..even though they did complain..haha.she was one calm girl..and always full of creatively..haha..all e nonsense la..haa...and recently she make me forget someone tat i have been holding on for very long..thanks gal..love u..muacks!!..thanks for today too!!
ya..those memories..hey..juz wanna say tat..i didnt mean to offend anyone on top k?juz wanna write my thoughts...find tat i should share it ba..wanna let go of it..
yup alright ciao..
