i m so dead beat.....
juz came home from my sister's competition in her talent round segment for Little Ms Asia competition.haha..she got 1st prize and its a tall trophy..lol...
she danced...Rihana's SOS and Rain's sad tango......yup
haaha..i dunno la..juz felt alittle sad now... i dunno..its like...i dun understand..somehow.i felt betrayed..betrayed by some of my friends who promised to be there for me...but they juz not doing their part...its like..nowadays most of them are having their bad days.and not for me.....haizz....dunno la..guess its exam thats pullin us aparttt...i dun wanna say their names cos i dun wanna hurt them..i guess they had their reasons to be not there with me ba.. i juz felt empty i guess..ya.....
have u all wished that u had a friend who will always be there...like staying overnight at yr house..share problems..and best of all will always be there with u when u r in school...?so far, i had met a friend in school who will always be there with me in school..but she wasnt able to stay over..and yaaa..haizzzz...i noe most of ppl in school had already found tat one true friend tat they can always rely to...
for me, nah..i guess i m still searching..maybe it takes time i guess.....i had many good friends by my side, but i dun have a friend who can be there with me 24hours..who can understand me like totally...cos i always take different paths in life i guesss..haiz.how i wish life could tell me i had already found one and tat i still dunnno tat he or she existed..ha..
as for love, thats nth i can say now.cos i m not into any relationship now..i totally give up..yup..and i put this song in my blog is becuz of wad i think of love now....i m not going thru any trauma..neither m i going to stay up to wait for e special someone to call..neither m i going to think tat i will hate to see the person go......So ppl, guess u guys gotta wait until after Os then say..ha.
i m not missing anyone..i juz hate it..hate it tat everytime i was e one who always get hurt...and betrayed.betrayed by yr own loved ones..hate it when guys juz treat u like spare tyre... I HAD ENOUGH...SO STOP IT!!....
i think i promised someone i will try and write some happy stuffs in my blog, but it juz seem like thats not much happy stuffs i can write for nw..i try la..
haha..hmm..i m actually in love with RAIN,WEIBO,and some english groups..lol..they rocks my life now.....OH..and JOAKIM GOMEZZZZ..haa....yaaa..omg..how i wish they were there for me..lol...yup..alright..i going le..ciao!!
*my wish is to have a band of my own and started to sing this kind of songs....to express my feelings bettter..haa..and at least no one will look down on me..ha..i m tough girl manzzz!!
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