hello everyone..today i had a good time..
but first i wanna say something..
juz now while i was watching the 9pm show, i felt very emo..reason becuz its almost e same situation tat happen to me a month back..
if u know e character, shanqi was wrongly blamed by both meiya and the mother..and they both did tried to make life miserable for her..so much so tat the dad didnt trust shanqi at all...Meiya did not admit her mistake when she stained shanqi's blouse..and even go all out to say tat..:"why would i wanna make yr life miserable?u already had ziyun..wad do u wan?.."...like wah lao..i cant stand it la..she's e one at blame when she say so much rubbish..i mean when comes to love, its fair game played..u cant force a person to be with u right?and then..u yrself were at blame..and yet u r saying so many thingssssss abt tat person...and u said it yrself, u wanna make life miserable for shanqi..and then later on becuz of wad meiya said to shanqi abt how slutty she can be..and like her mum who seduced the dad..shanqi of cos get angry and slap her la! it's the same thing lor..juz like shanqi, i didnt wanna make life miserable or wad..i juz wanna live as myself and leave u guys alone..i did ok! i even more happpier without u guys!..and if not for tat prelim paper..things wouldnt had been so bad..i juz wanna be normal friends with u guys.and..haiz wads e point of saying all these...?not many in my class also bother to trust me anymore..they rather trust them.afterall they are classmates for long wad..i already tried to stay connected with e class already, and yet some people in class are still doing this to me.i m also yr classmate ok?that time during the class photo, nobody even bother to ask me bring class tee,but i still bring,its in my bag..cos i only heard wad karmun said a day ago..haizzz..i know some people went round to remind people to bring..but they didnt even remind me..tears*.and i noe for sure,someone is innocent.only one person,tat is! shanqi is innocent so M i..like her, i maybe a little wild but i noe wad i m doing! i dun go around spreading rumours..did i do tat?NO! please! I ALSO DUN GO AROUND SNATCHING PEOPLE'S BOYFRIENDS!! i dun backstab.maybe i did, but all WAS IN E PAST..I KNOW MY MISTAKE NOW! I M SERIOUS!! all i ever want now, is to let my friends around me be happy! wadever conflicts tat my friend had with another friend, i dun step in..they are still my friends after all..i will only be their listening ear, but i will definitely not step into e conflict to make things worse.that is!

anyway,well,haiz..my dad sick le...haiz.how can i be so muddleheaded...i keep asking him for something.and didnt even have a good chance to talk to him..i really really regret it now..haizzzz...

alright..talk about some happy things...today i did my maths..cos i had tuition tml..lol..then i called kaiern ..ask her to help me solve some questions..hehe..then she converse me with wenfang..lol..then we chatted..thenn wenfang tell me:"hey y dun u meet us up then we go help u with yr maths"...lol.i was like..ok...they all are in poly le..and it so nice of them.. =) so we meet up...then we went bishan library...kaiern brought one of her friend,jesse..a guy la.then we found a space to study..so e four of us sat down, kaiern help me with one question then she went on to do her poly homework..also maths..but this time round is amaths..(oh manz!)haha..then wenfang sitting beside me..lol..she make the most noise..lol..she do maths also muz talk..haha..she help me with e easier questions..and then later all e chim questions pass to jesse..lol..he's damned good lor!..haha wenfang and kaiern keep saying they may have forgotten..but they will try..lol...then there's a question on vector..tats the first question i ask kaiern..haha..she was like:"oh i love vectors,come let me try!"..haha..then when she do, she got e wrong ans..lol..then later when wenfang and jesse explain to her, she explain to me..then i was like..:"i thought it will be -0 and not 0 when u wannna find AB?..she was like:"-0 also equal to 0 right?" ...then i was like:' oh ya hor!"haha..then she say:"u very cute !"...i was like dotsssssssssssss...haaaaaaaa
oh ya...then we met shihui again..everytime go out with them always met her de..haha..

lol..then wenfang keep saying she's hungry..and she say to me:"see samantha, becuz of u, we go in hunger to help u!"..lol.........then i was like:"ok ok my fault!"...haha...she keep on saying she wants the crispy chicken..throughout the whole session!! haha...so in e end, we go j8 to buy crispy chicken to eat before dinner..lol...then wenfang tell me:'if u dunno how to do again,call us out k?"..haha..i say :"okie"...lol so nice of them la.. =) they take their time off to teach me..haha...

wonder who they are?..lol..they ain no friends in st margs..they are from other school...i noe wenfang since sec1 le...then is through tuition i got to know her..then for e past years..i had been meeting up with her..and sometimes after school, i will also meet them up..then she slowly intro her classmates to me..haha...in e end, i know e whole class already wad..lol...some of them is my close pals now..like vincent,asbishek,zhengxia,bishal..hoechuan.rongfa..kaiern,xinyi,roxanne,mingzhu,huiying..lol..so many right?..haha..love them altogether..cos they being thru thick and thin with me..haha..i still remember..i went to meet them after their o level practical,last year..then we went to nearby their school,to eat lunch..i call them wad..they actually eat finish le..but they wait for me..lol so paiseh...they told me the minced meat mee pok is very nice so i ordered..well, u nv guess..victor, the lucify drummer...juz sitting opp me..also eat with us la..victor is their classmate..haa..he showing off his nokia phone to rongfa..lol...then a few days later, i met him in e bus...haha he recognise me..lol...

haha so much memories with them!! lol..went so many places with them.lol..and then i remember a time, i was the only st margs..so they jokingly..say i betray my school..loll cos i keep hanging out with them..lol. but of cos its a joke la..no offence here.. =X..haha think i write alot le...next time will update more..lol..
ciao!! 1.48am

spiritually_yours at 12:34 AM

hi..hows everyone doing here?
well pretty much ok..
i dunno wad to describe my feelings now..
guess it was e exam blues..
no mood to study..
but i will.. i know i will..
juz believe..winkz* =)

things had been pretty fine for me ever since school closes..
nothing much..juz tat i had to pay up e dxo unsold tickets..
haiz..money problem..sianz..!

but wad to do? this is life manz..
haha..i cant wait till Os end!!
i can reunite with candice and serene..yeah! and all my long lost pals
not forgetting my school mates..fadhilah,ivey,yvonne,helicia,cheryl..oh yeah they rock my world!
fad is e hottest chick i ever known..lol..miss her lots..she is always uncontactable..haha..tats why muz say more abt her..haha..is like..woah we can share alot of things in our lives together..haha.from boys to gangs,to songs,to movies,to friends,to jamming..etc..etc..haha..she did said to linda:"sam is mine!" haha..tats becuz of e mercy relief thing i guess.haha..

haa..hmm..love now? hard to say..dun wanna think abt it till Os end..
i wanna dye my hair!! purplish red? yea.i wanna go jamming!! playing e keyboard &sing..ah..so many things i had to do...cant wait cant wait..oh i be wearing braces le..haha.


kk nothing much to say...juz tat i m happy to have my kor to chat with me again..hee..he's like e greatest kor ever! share with me life stories..and give me valuable advices.

and not forgetting one of my friend who is in USA.. i hope he is doing great...to say, i miss his presence and love talkin to him on msn...although we aint tat close now, but juz wanna say tat no mattter how much we quarrel before, u r still my friend.=) becuz i nv had any bad times with u at all..its only on msn.. hope u understand..do take care my friend..if we had a chance, feel free to chat with me on msn when i m free k?take care.. =)

to someone i used to be close to.i juz dunno how i feel now... i juz doesnt wan to create any more hurts or disturbance into yr life.cos u know why.... i m juz going to treat u e way u want me to....cos u said something to serene tat hurt me so bad..tat i could nv pull myself once.tat moment in time, i juz felt like running away..away from my family..u get it?... take care ciao..juz remember to come to my sis's performance..cos my sis wan u to come.yup.tats all i can say.

alright got to go..going to see mrs jean tan tml with ivey..haha.she nv tell us wad time to meet her.. :S so i told ivey, better go earlier.haha..so meeting at 10am..then go meet my other friend in school..haha..kk gotta go ciao!!oh ya i put something on friendster blog..go check it out..ciao!! 1.05am

spiritually_yours at 12:53 AM

oh manz today had been a tiring day...
went to school...meet yvonne..then she wanna find Mrs Low..and helicia came down as well..then suddenly Mrs seet saw us..so bring us to chapel for english.. =(
ya sab did tell me..i guess i forgotten..haiz..

anyway aftertat went to J8 with helicia..walk around..then suddenly met ben and his friend..in 3 consecutive times..haha..then yvonne join us.haha..
actually suppose to study..but didnt..haiz..
i so regretted now........

i dunno..for now i m feeling very pressurised becuz of my sis..and its Os..i juz dunno..i lost e interest to study..tears*...i cant find e motivation tat i had last year...its not even there...where would i ever stand now?...at e edge of e building?...

haiz...i do hope it will come back soon.....its not easy but i will try..do support me too...haiz..

i juz couldnt care abt anything now..i juz wanna pass...pass my papers.
and juz get out of this stupid trap...i had no freedom..freedom is not even in my dictionary..i tried to escape..but its juz not there.. tears* who can help me? no one...but myself....haiz..

i really dunno wad to write already la..ciao...!11pm

spiritually_yours at 10:49 PM

hey bloggie..haha
its being great...haha..
i learn e true meaning of "promiscious"..lol.from cheryl..lol..its something bad..haha..

anyway yesterday..i went out..
ya went to DXO..oh my gawd it was great.
haaha..i guess to most people, it was boring becuz u had to queue for so long and there be alot of ppl..afterall e place quite small and it played r&b and hiphop only..but nah..to me its was alright..i enjoy it..afterall its ladies nite..lol..i went with one of my close guy friend..and its a party..ya..can see there's lot of girls and boys..lol..this is e first time in this year i went clubbing...haha..
ya..and surprisely i went there for work..haha..selling tickets and all..ya
not bad la..when i went there, i somehow was able to adapt to e place very quickly..guess i was able to carry myself well..ya..and jim and i made some new friends..vincent's friends,paul's friends..and also a girl tat both me and jim met in dxo..her name was rachel..
she looks like my dance junior but she was from another school..hmm..at first..i was alittle shy towards her..dunno why..lol..cos jim and her started talking first..ya..then cos i went down to do work wad..then somehow i excused myself to get some alcohol downstair..and i was like..:"sam what u doing,why so shy??"haha..so i went up and tried to make her feel comfortable..so aftertat..i started e conversation..haha.then later..somehow e dancefloor began to have ppl streaming in..it all started with a few girls..ya they were daring..then slowly e crowd started to come in..then later..rachel ask us:"do u all wanna go down to dance?" (cos we are at second floor)...so we was..like:"come on manz,lets hit e dance floor"..haha..so we went and danced e nite thru..the three of us were great..cos all of us were able to dance well..and me, being first time in this kind of party..and was able to dance..haha..i m satisfied..! jim was fun..continuously making me laugh..haha.and so does rachel... she was good..haha..she was actually waiting for her friend too..but saw no sign of her..lol so we juz danced..yeah i like it..
i drank quite alot yesterday..not really alot la..but juz drink lor..haha.can say was high..but i enjoyed myself..drank volka coke,volka lime,volka coke...share with jim..yeah..satisfied with myself..and i cant believe..i can adapt to this clubbing thing so quickly manz! it seems like its all so familiar..
haha..muz thank donovan somehow..cos i dun have to join e queue.ya..company's policy....haha.so juz went in..i m glad i m 18..haha.but poor him..he had to work..haiz..wont be able to dance with him..lol..
anyway next time people..if there will be any party,do come early like me..or else u had to queue for hours and then u all will complain that it was boring and so many ppl. ..ya..jim had to join e queue..but we came early so not much ppl..haha..able to grab some seats and all..ya and he receive one free house pour..yeahh...my other friends who came later were unable to get it..cos i guess too many ppl..ya..so heed my advice,come early next time..and if u guys are a hardcore dancer,pls hit e dancefloor manz!yeah..haha...luckily both me and jim are dancers..haha.able to click..lol..then later, jim send me to e bus stop..ya..i had no choice but to go back early..cos i had morning tuition...yeah now suffering alittle hangover and sore eye..lol..
i didnt expect myself to go too..but then its all for work..so i went..hmm if i will go again..hopefully..after Os.juz take it tat last night was juz a nite to relax...ya..i will get my chicks to go with me..lol.love them all..haha..they say they be going..haha..and do not ever worry..i will make u guys love this party!...yeah...! pam and junying ask me to join them after Os..and so does helicia..so we shall go together..lol..oh ya and my godsis..meiyu..yeah..all go together..
serene's stead dun believe i will go..like.wow..hey i went ok?haha..this is another side of me u haven seen..=)haha..


alright going grandma's house soon..going to get some work done..ciaoz..have fun.!3.19pm

spiritually_yours at 2:53 PM

yeah i changed my blog song...
i been searching for this song for quite long...haha..i love this song to e max..!! haha...

anyway..tomorrow will be e last day of school for me..
ya..i cant retain anymore..
i m just going to see teachers in staff room and take exams in e hall..
haiz...i m also going to miss all e wonderful people i met in e this school.

St margaret. I had been in this school for 6years...
so much memories..
when i first step into sec 1, i was a nerd..haha.carry so many stuffs...i got to know clarice...
when i went sec 2..i know feena and she was e one who influnence me to turn bad...we broke up..friendship..
Sec 3..alot of things...and so on and so for..
this is e school where i met true friends like, serene,candice, feena..steph yong,clarice..and many others..audrey,not to mention,sab,karmun,ivey,cheryl..yvonne..
i spent my happiness,sorrow and laughter all in this school...now i had to leave..
to sit for e major exam..finally at last!.haiz..but still feel sad..
seriously i m going to miss alot of things...
the dance practices...
the canteen food...
the unhappy memories..the day mrs lee died..the day serene broke down and cry on her bdae cos our late principal died on her bdae..how we tried to make her happy.
how i go around comforting my close friends,like rung,louisa..the twins.sheila..
the period of time when i left my closest group...the day we created memories..

so many memories flashes thru my mind...i juz dunno how to put in here..
nonetheless, i m going to miss this batch..they were e one who graduated with me..i love them all together..no matter wad happen...
i was e last to leave in my previous batch....

it so hard not to feel sad...especially when u realised tat u are going to graduate soon..it juz so hard..i always say i didnt really like our school schedule..but still i love this school cos thats where i know my friends,my experiences,my misdeeds..and all...

thanks for e memories..serene,candice,feena,clarice,ivy,munsan&ting,yong,alicia,audrey,felicia,so many namesss...

and especially this batch..ivey,mari,cheryl,yvonne,helicia,fadhilah..fiona,yongling,sabrina,farhana,hash,liz,weiting,yuxin,peiwen,angela,karmun,zijing,sheeren,jolene,shuwen..and a whole lot more.........

thanks for e memories..thanks for making me feel accepted in this batch even after serene left..=)

i also wanna thank my teachers..thanks for continuously being so patience to me, especially to mrs jean tan,mrs pillai and ms kee..thanks alot..thanks for e rest of the teachers too..

some memories i remembered was, i got so upset one relationship problem and in e midst of lesson, i juz went to the toilet and cry...outside me,were feena,serene and candice...they were comforting me from outside..trying to cheer me up..i juz know tat..i will go to their arms..when i m sad...they were always there...

when nana & candice not around, serene with me,all those memories i had with her during f&n...drawiing and crapping and all....haiz

so much to say, yet so fast time past..we always thought of leaving the school but when we really going to, we really felt reluctant to leave...

i miss e school stage..thats where i perform and hurt my knees..i miss e dance studio..i been there for 6years..and so fast i gotta separate from my juniors..haiz..

i m going to miss one teacher,its ms wee..i dunno why..it juz tat..today when me and cheryl were like copying the answers that she wrote on e board..we juz felt very touched..is like..she is e only teacher..who will only give e answers to the workbook..and conscienciously, she will write on the board...yet she didnt finish giving us e answers..she told us tat we should be able to get better grade than the sec4..this is one teacher tat nv give up on us..no matter how slack we are...and doesnt matter if we are the weaker ones..haizzz..


haizz.i really dunno wad to write anymore..too much to say..tomorrow will be e last time i be in st margs..in my classroom...my days had been counted up....
haiz..i will always remember the polka dots..its my signature school. i never regret it.=) 11.17pm

spiritually_yours at 10:41 PM

hey...
its being quite some times since i blogged it..
ya..actually there had been lots of things happening in my life..
and yet, i m glad i found true friends who faces it with me..
particularly this year..

ealier on, i kept saying i didnt like this batch..too much frienship problems..i miss my old batch..where most of e fun there are..there are also ppl who really show care and concern towards u..

but now, its like going to be end of year soon le...
how is my feelings now?
hmm...all i can say is i m happy.becuz i met true friends in school..its not as bad as i thought..
its only towards e end, i realise true friends do exist still..
i love them all together!
they were always there when i cry..
they were there when i laugh..
they were there when i need someone to go recess with..
and as a friend, i also will play my part to be there for my friends always..
i try to be there when they need me...

alright let me say some ppl i met this year..
ivey- she is my grandson, and i love her cute,gloomy attitude..haha.i go crazy she also go crazy...she also someone who always being there throughout last year and this year..i cant say how much i appreciate her...i will always remember the moments we shared during maths lesson..and she is my LAN game partner! haha..
fadhilah- she's one hot babe..oh manz..i love tis mama.haha..she's so great! i cant help but to say much..like others, we will go mad together! haha..she's my da vinci partner..and i love her cool attitude manz...she always make me go high!! haha..lame...
Cheryl- This girl is really pretty and crazy..she gets jumpy very easily..and also my crazy friend..MY MENTAL PATIENT!!..haha..she's one hot chick too..although we know each other like tis year..but i juz didnt realise we had so much in common..and we can talk abt anything under e sun..i love her to bits!!
Helicia- this is a cute girl..who love anime juz like me..i love going her house!! oh manz she so cute!!! haha..and she's very helpful..and kind..i love her lots too..
Yvonne- this girl here is very chatty..she has always being there when i need someone..i will still remember e time we were close..it was when..i cried in class.and so happened that she was e only one who saw me..then i told her why later on..afterwhich we became so close..she is like my pillow..cos she always need someone to hold her..haha..and we always go crazy together too..haha..
Sabbie- my sms friend..haha..i dunno wad to say abt her.but all i can say is..she's juz great..trying to help..and she's cute too..haaaa...


and there's a few others in this batch..that really make me feel like a friend..i love them all..if hasnt for them, i wouldnt be able to make thru this year...becuz..there were times i do feel like giving up..but i juz didnt..becuz of all these loves i had in here...thanks..

my didi- greg, thanks..for being there..u had been e light in my life...thanks..u r really great..although at times u r childish..haha but i love yr funny attitude..

and there's this person i wanna say thanks to was..
my godbro,syberian- he was e one who always being there with me..and no matter wad problem i m facing..he always throw me with good advices..and he's e only one i will listen to...i noe him for 4 years le..and he had never failed to brighten up my life...he was there when i had singles..he was there,when incidents happen this year..i will always run to him when i felt like giving up inside me..he knew me well..and i had nothing to say now..but gratitude ..and i love him..as my godbro.. =)
thanks bro!!haha

sorry get too emotional..lol...well i m so glad i see e person again on sat..haha..so funny tat he actually went back to change and we..like..wow met in orchard..at pepper lunch..oh manzzzzzz!! haha...why he is there????......arrrrrrrr..haaa...

i muz go for e dxo thing already..hee..haha..
alright i go le..hehe..ciaoz..all e best for Os..i m so glad..Os going to end..lol...ciaozzz..night..!!12.29am

spiritually_yours at 11:54 PM

MY DEAR GREGORY KUAH DIDI...PLEASE CHEER UP!

Dun make me feel sad cos of u ar..u also know i quite upset le.and dunno wads going on in this world le..

i know wad i did le..i didnt thank u..hee.this boy here had been very nice to be..often call me up to check how i m...thanks..i love ya too k? u r juz like my other friends...always there for me.and i didnt mean to leave u out de.
so plssssssss dun be sad k? really appreciate wad u done..
thanks for listening to all my ramblingss...and writing a testimonial for me.juz wan u to be happy..smile k? seeeeee this whole page is for u......haaaa... =)

lol wad u all want me to write?
dunno...

it juz tat i m feeling better now..ya sorry tat i didnt talk much juz now..cos aint myself..

i guess i need time to be alone to reflect..ya..

dunno wad to say le...
juz wanna let my didi know tat i do care k?..i care for u..i really do..cos u r my didi..

so juz cheer up..and stop thinking tat i dun care abt u..probably cos of today's thing i wasnt able to express myself properly..sorry ya?...

and i really care la..ya...pls smile..smile k? winkz*

ciaoz!! 11.01pm

spiritually_yours at 10:45 PM