i m very tired already...
i juz dunno why i should blog yesterday..
yesterday prom was e suckiest...fancy make us pay for a buffet..
stupid..
then later went on to clubbing..MOS..yup..luckily went with helicia...
lol..so many people keep on calling me "princess"...cos of my tiara..haha.
somehow saw howie they all there too..
i think this whole clubbing thing began to let me see in a bigger picture..
i realise tat no matter how much i enjoy myself yesterday, it still will bring pain...
its somehow let me see e bad side of clubbing...i really wanna thanks someone..really...thanks alex for yr help... =)
i juz dunno.....
maybe i m just escaping those thoughts..thoughts of e past...i juz looking for something to bring these thoughts away..because it is full of hatred and hurt..clubbin became my only way..but its only e dark side of it...i m running away..
he had make me feel so un-myself..every now and then, he is always walking in and out of life..i juz dunno what his intention were..after my last entry, it had come to a point where i m on e verge of giving him up..why should i spend so much time with someone who doesnt care?if he wants to be like tat,there's nothing i really i can do......might as well juz let it go..it had come to a point for me to believe tat our relationship will nv last anymore...tears*
i juz feel hurt..hurt cos i seen e dark side of clubbing..and now i know e reason why some of my friends are moving away from clubbing...i being thru it before..and i never wan it to happen again..and i m pretty tired now..alex, thanks for being a good pal to accompany me today.i appreciate it..thanks.....ciao.!!1.48am
spiritually_yours at 1:42 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
hey everyoneeee....
how's everybody? yea O level had finally ended....haha..i dunnnnno wad to say..but sometimes i juz feel empty..it juz seem like o level haven end...ya
today,wad did i do?
hmm..firstly..i went night safari with cheryl and the rest yesterday..lol..had so much fun there!! haha..seeee all those animals..juz make me happpy!! haha..i dunno why..even though i didnt feel tat o level had ended..haha..!!
then tis morning brought my sister to bukit batok for some audition thing...turn out tat its not suitable for her..ugh!! waste my time.go grandma house eat...then i go and meet cheryl...cos she wanna buy some threads..then i was like telling her:"it seems like e whole world is working,except us." lol....then suddenly i receive a msg from amaryllis..saying tat i could work at her workplace..which is at suntec..lol..cool!! its full time..which means i wont be seeing my family often..haiz.. the pay not bad too..yea..
then i told my mum abt it..she juz said..juz be careful..i was like :"ok"..haha..then later went to eat dinner with wenfang..and told her abt it too..lol...she juz say..:'ok, when u finish the interview,let me know"haha..ya had to go thru interview but my friend say i should be able to get it..yup.. then later juz now i called serene..cos she wan me to call her..then we chatted and she so excited abt thurs night! haha...wow! then she wan me ton her house after prom..then i say ok lor..haha.she miss me wad! haha. then i gotta take another 21 tickets for michelle and aaron..wow..they bring so many friendsssss....haha.so michelle wan me to go la..i say i will be going wad..its "tertiary fling" yup..18+ and above then can..haha..
well, well...wad can i say?i been thinking abt tat one person for e longest time ever,i juz couldnt get him off my mind. i juz dunno..memory of tat day juz kept flashing back.wad do we both wan actually?i really dunno....i juz wish i could find e answer to it. really. every now and then i wanna find him..but i juz dun have e guts to do so...i juz wanna tell him my deepest feelings..it juz so hardd for me to say..i juz dunno..i juz hope one day i will pick up e guts and tell him..his eyess.so mesmerising....i juz miss u..i m sorry, i lied tat i didnt have feelings for u anymore...i juz dun wan u to be sad, i juz wan u to be happy..it doesnt matter whether we are together anot..as long as u r happy, i m happy too.. =) i juz wan u to be happy.remember tat.and for now,ashiteru.i m sorry!
gotttta go..ciaoz!2.21am
spiritually_yours at 2:04 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
hey people!!!!
did u guys miss me like crazy???
haha...
anyway yeah O level going to end le...
then i can go out with my babes and hunks soon!!
lol.....
so many...so uncountable..
haha..brought my prom clothes alreadyyyy...aint going to say anything..
haha..whoever going tat day, will know liao..haha..
anyway i actually went to meet serene today..ya..cos pass her the tickets..
then she wan me to accompany her awhile then later meet her bf lor..
so we are at amk..haha...
ya..then we went to play pool...lol..she pay.but she say i waste her money..dots.. =(...but she say in a joking manner la..haha she cut her fringe..haha..quite nice la..then she dye hair too..hmm..then i saw aaron photo(serene's stead)..lol..not bad la..all same colours..haha so loving...
she very famous sia in amk..lol muz be all thanks to her stead ba..who ask him live there..haha...
then we chat and talk about how's life and everything..oh ya.. she took from me 8 tickets of "tertiary fling" on 23 nov..which means she going to bring 15 friends with her...!! cos one ticket = 2 entry...yup yup!! cool cool!! haha
..then i left with 7 tickets..hmm..probably going to give some to vincent and his friends..lol...see la..he say he will respond me..then i will be so done with the tickets!! lol..
maybe will be seeing sere after prom..lol
well wad can i say..quite fun la..haha..
we went to guardian later on..
cos she wanna buy makeup remover...then there's tis two guys outside la..they both kept whistling at us...then serene turn to me..i was like :"for u la!" haha...
well i guess we dress a little overboard ba..lol..serene wear so nice the now fashion short..and aaron bought for serene a top..then she put some heavy makeup..hmmm..nice..for me i wear a pink top and a micro-mini skirt.. =X... skimpy ma??hahaa.....i dun find tat ba..its juz me..lol.and serene..lol...then serene was like:'hey can we dun walk tat way again i dun wan to see those guys"..haha..so i was like..how to when there is only one way..lol..then later she went raiders find aaron..i go home...
yeah..tml my sister's competition at eastpoint...ya 1-5...go see if u can make ittttt!! haha...
miss her so much siaaaaa..haha..serene hahaaa....ok i go le..go eat my cheese fries!! haha..sister bought for me..yeah she rocksssss!!! ciao!!! 10.25pm
spiritually_yours at 9:52 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
hey hows everyone doing here?
haha juz wanna say tat i been studying with zhichyim for e past two days..lol he is my ex tuition pal..ya had been a great friend!! i still remember e time we were 16..lol i had night tuition with him and some other friends..including ben..lol..those times were e most enjoyable..he stayed at bishan also..so we often go home together...then ben,very naughty!! he always take me and my friends rubber bands..then make us chase after him until e bus interchange opp!! ugh!!the worst part was..we had to hold on to our ponytail while chasing him.....then i will always like:"BEN I WANT MY RUBBER BAND NOW!!OOOI IDIOT!!UGH!!" u know wad kind of expression he give me.e.i-dun-care-dun-give-a-shit-to-return-yr-rubber-band expression..haha..now i think back, its quite childish..but its not my fault!! ben started first!!! oh ya.then zhichyim will always hug the pole..pillar i mean.looking at us play.or juz stare at blank space...lol...zhi chiym is always a very patient and nice guy..lol..i m those type quite active de..always run around chasing ben cos he always bully me and my friends.and its like i and my friends always have to run!if it not rubber band incident, it will be e water bottle incident..spray at each other.or best..camera phone incident..wow..ALL THANKS TO BENJAMIN KOH!!..but then zhi chyim will always remind me to take e bus..haha..he sometimes juz laugh..but later on..we got in e bus.. nothing happen liao..lol..we juz sometime talk abt other things ba..haa..
ya..he fail Os..so he retake in ite..so happened bumped into one another one day,so decided to study together..lol..but so far ok la..haa..hope both of us pass ba..haah.kk ciao..nothing to write liao..tired le..night!!2.01am
spiritually_yours at 1:37 AM