Life is a stage, how about love? love is my light & darkness

Thursday, November 30, 2006

hello bloggie!!

haha....came back from ngee ann camp.its day camp tats why i m back..haha...pretty ok la...got zijing they all...abt 10 of us..lol..so most of lecturer theatres we occupy the whole place..haha..then dinner we eat alot...lol can say the camp quite ok...ya..met kaiern and kor tat day..came and visit me....lol...

then we tried the cca..but then we only managed to try one cos it was raining heavily then most of the cca's cant be displayed..i tried cyclings..dots..i cant even cycle well..zijing wan me to try so i try lor..lol..then so rocky la..so i didnt really cycle..haha..

oh ya then i got free movie tickets...and zijing got grand prize..samsung mp3..haha..all from lucky draws..then zijing was like..dunno whether to smile or laugh..cos she juz smiling all e way..as though someone had suan her lol...

tml jamming..yeah!! until 10pm!! haha..........

too bad e tickets..i know who to give le..haha..sorry friends..!lol..going to give to someone who had been there for me e past 2 years and we had nv ever watch a single movie together before so i guess now its a chance to give it to him..

haha..thats all i can say ba..tired le..muz sleep...nightttttttttttttttttzzzzzzzzzz!!!11.50pm

spiritually_yours at 11:10 PM

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

i m soooooooo tiredddddd.....

yea..today no work..but miss them...haha

juz now went to my friend house...then stayed there for quite some times..heeeee..bleahx!!

then i thought of buying food first..then met my other friend...... she look pretty sad...so we sat down at kfc to talk lor..then follow her go walk walk awhile in j8...something personal happen to her ba...haiz....so many things happen when having relationship....

tml i got camp!! 8.30am!!so early......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! very tired!! haha

alex, come and crash the camp lei..sianz la..haha...

hows work?chanel and jasmine??haha...keep me updated k?

i going to sleep le..be working on sunday afternoon yea!! dun misss me ar??haha.......loveeeeeeeeeee yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!10.56pm

spiritually_yours at 10:46 PM

hey people!!

thanks for my taggers!! i miss u guys lot..suddenly feeling kind of a little sad tat its no more school le.. =( i hope everyone is doing alright..weeeeeeee...

wad can i say now?i love my job..cos i met very nice people there..too bad today jasmine and suyu nv go work today...but melody and jiajun ok la...we had fun..play guess e numbers today..then me and melody draw e dustbin..haha..so fun..lol...she wrote abt jiajun..when he not around..then wrote abt steven too..haha..

she wrote something like:"jiajun dun anyhow throw rubbish!" haha...then stephen is :"stephen is bob..bob the builder..can we fix it?!..haha!" lame..then sarinah thought steven punish us...hahaha..cos me and melody sit on e floor..lol...but today stephen flu sia..haha.

aftertat..went to meet my friend in town for dinner..yup yup..haha...i came very early to suntec today...10.30..work suppose to start at 11am..lol too early liao..so i went toyR us to see toys!! haha i so happy when i go in!! lol..so many toys lor!! i wann all!!!!!! but no money!! then jiajun came le..saw him coming out of lift..when i come out of toysRus..haha..then i sit down make ribbons..lol....then today got peple buy 11 pouches from us....woooo..working people la..haha..

i remember yesterday i work Pm shift then jasmine and suyu went to talk to standard chartered people..jiajun went toys r us.he work am shift but cannot off yet...then sarinah juz say:"u seee la, dunno they working or wad,some go talk talk..one go toysRus..." haha..so funny.lol..

k la..think i go le...tired liao..dun wan to blog..yea!! going out with audrey tml..haha..i off day..hope got time can drop by at suntec awhile..haha.!! 1.42am..

spiritually_yours at 1:10 AM

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

yea..wad do i write today?
hmm nothing much...juz wan to say..chatted with audrey baby today..miss her lots manzz!! she is like my confider...haha..

and then today suyu and jasmine and i close e booth..yup yup!! fun la..miss them though..lol...

k la nothing much to say juz tat..i WRAP 2 PENCIL CASES TODAY!!!haha lame shit...

not much customers...lol..sianz..oh manz..i workin with jiajun later..better sleep now..night night!! haha....

oh ya..and they keep teasing me and jiajun lor...irritatin...blea!!! i and him is nothing hor!!!

gotta go..nite nite..my lalalala people..!!2.55am

spiritually_yours at 2:55 AM

Monday, November 27, 2006

hmm let me clarify with u people where i working first..i think i been talking abt clubbing ever since..haha

anyway i m working at suntec as a giftwrapper-cum-giving out flyers-redemption-counter..lalala..ya...got shifts de...so far, i kind of like it..met alot new friends ya..

today kelly smack my butt..i was like :"ouch! why u slap me!" then she was like...:"cos yr butt very jiao wad,so tempting to smack...haha!!" ........dots....dots..she use a rolled up wrapper and smack me lor!! cos i was lookin at e schedule for tml's work then i was leaning on e table wad.wearing a mini skirt then can see e shape of my butt ba...ugh!! luckily when kun jun came back,she help me smack her back..haha.then we started laughing..lol so far..pretty good la...getting used to the job.yup yup..

tml meeting jasmine at city hall..lol..go early ba.haha..met alot of people today..met ben and liling..cant believe they are here..lol..

actually tat day clubbing..i had my fun.fun until alex muz bug in twice.in the dancefloor.lol.thanks thanks!!

come visit me at suntec at toys r us there k?outside.yup..we r like e customer service counter like tat cos alot of people kept asking us for direction...lol..yea and i face toys everyday....everyday see e same old toys on display..robodinosaur..haha..

there's a time someone ask us to wrap a hula hoop then my friend was like:"so hard how to?" then the lady was like:"never mind,jia you!"haha..dots luckily managed to wrap it up...lol..

k la tired le...nightttt...update when i m freeeeee... 1.54am

spiritually_yours at 5:54 PM

spoke to serene juz now...haiz..dunnno why she sad i also sad.......haiz..hope everything fine for her....why like tat?......i juz dunno wad do people think sometimes..why would he come?maybe he juz come to walk around..but he was alone..weird.anyway not going to say anything anymore..juz tired.ciao!

spiritually_yours at 2:02 AM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

maybe me and him are juz stubborn..refused to say out our true feelings..haiz..if only...it isnt this way...

tears is beginning to fill up my eyes.about to break forth..why m i crying?why?tears*
it juz tat things juz doesnt turn out e way it is when it really should be.i juz cannot accept it..smiles cover my tears but yet every night i m feeling e hurt... and i thought by running away from it, things would juz be better.but i really was so wrong ... i hate it now...it making it worse.

no one there to help me.why cant he juz say this in this blog music...
i dun wanna run away, i wanna stay forever..
i dun wanna be alone, no promises...
i juz wanna die in yr arms.....

if only he said it soon, things wouldnt have turn out worse for me....

i m not hopeful now...i juz hope i could juz stop running away from problems.
clubbing is not a good time for u to run away from yr problems. in fact, its better if u really juz mingle with yr friends.i was wrong in tat prospection..i thought clubbing was a form of running away in problems. but i was wrong...it brought it worse..and i seen the worst of it.

i had to wake up..if only he could speak of his words..and stop running from it.we both would be better...but now its seem like all hopes had been washed away..wad can i do?but to move on......

like wad ivey said to me once when i was in e worst of state:"where is e ahma i used to know who is strong and does not afraid of obstacles?" i muz be strong..really i muz.......u may say i m really tired of going into another relationship...really its true.. i juz hope tat e next relationship i go to..it will last.last in a good way. and not making use of it.....true love.

i give many people question marks..so now here's e answer..above all..i go clubbing to run away, to feel accepted by others..now i was wrong. my answer now, i wanna just go clubbing to mingle with my friends..and have fun..yup tats abt it..i should stop putting my problems into clubbing..it juz make it worse..
gotta go now, good night my friends.. thanks for standing beside me all these while..i love u guys alot really!! especially to helicia,ivey,cheryl..fad.yvonne...alex..candice,nana..sab...audrey..vincent.my godbro,greg..and syberian kor...u guys are e greatest..!! 2.17am

spiritually_yours at 1:58 AM

i m very tired already...
i juz dunno why i should blog yesterday..
yesterday prom was e suckiest...fancy make us pay for a buffet..
stupid..

then later went on to clubbing..MOS..yup..luckily went with helicia...
lol..so many people keep on calling me "princess"...cos of my tiara..haha.
somehow saw howie they all there too..

i think this whole clubbing thing began to let me see in a bigger picture..
i realise tat no matter how much i enjoy myself yesterday, it still will bring pain...
its somehow let me see e bad side of clubbing...i really wanna thanks someone..really...thanks alex for yr help... =)
i juz dunno.....

maybe i m just escaping those thoughts..thoughts of e past...i juz looking for something to bring these thoughts away..because it is full of hatred and hurt..clubbin became my only way..but its only e dark side of it...i m running away..

he had make me feel so un-myself..every now and then, he is always walking in and out of life..i juz dunno what his intention were..after my last entry, it had come to a point where i m on e verge of giving him up..why should i spend so much time with someone who doesnt care?if he wants to be like tat,there's nothing i really i can do......might as well juz let it go..it had come to a point for me to believe tat our relationship will nv last anymore...tears*

i juz feel hurt..hurt cos i seen e dark side of clubbing..and now i know e reason why some of my friends are moving away from clubbing...i being thru it before..and i never wan it to happen again..and i m pretty tired now..alex, thanks for being a good pal to accompany me today.i appreciate it..thanks.....ciao.!!1.48am

spiritually_yours at 1:42 AM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

hey everyoneeee....
how's everybody? yea O level had finally ended....haha..i dunnnnno wad to say..but sometimes i juz feel empty..it juz seem like o level haven end...ya

today,wad did i do?
hmm..firstly..i went night safari with cheryl and the rest yesterday..lol..had so much fun there!! haha..seeee all those animals..juz make me happpy!! haha..i dunno why..even though i didnt feel tat o level had ended..haha..!!

then tis morning brought my sister to bukit batok for some audition thing...turn out tat its not suitable for her..ugh!! waste my time.go grandma house eat...then i go and meet cheryl...cos she wanna buy some threads..then i was like telling her:"it seems like e whole world is working,except us." lol....then suddenly i receive a msg from amaryllis..saying tat i could work at her workplace..which is at suntec..lol..cool!! its full time..which means i wont be seeing my family often..haiz.. the pay not bad too..yea..

then i told my mum abt it..she juz said..juz be careful..i was like :"ok"..haha..then later went to eat dinner with wenfang..and told her abt it too..lol...she juz say..:'ok, when u finish the interview,let me know"haha..ya had to go thru interview but my friend say i should be able to get it..yup.. then later juz now i called serene..cos she wan me to call her..then we chatted and she so excited abt thurs night! haha...wow! then she wan me ton her house after prom..then i say ok lor..haha.she miss me wad! haha. then i gotta take another 21 tickets for michelle and aaron..wow..they bring so many friendsssss....haha.so michelle wan me to go la..i say i will be going wad..its "tertiary fling" yup..18+ and above then can..haha..

well, well...wad can i say?i been thinking abt tat one person for e longest time ever,i juz couldnt get him off my mind. i juz dunno..memory of tat day juz kept flashing back.wad do we both wan actually?i really dunno....i juz wish i could find e answer to it. really. every now and then i wanna find him..but i juz dun have e guts to do so...i juz wanna tell him my deepest feelings..it juz so hardd for me to say..i juz dunno..i juz hope one day i will pick up e guts and tell him..his eyess.so mesmerising....i juz miss u..i m sorry, i lied tat i didnt have feelings for u anymore...i juz dun wan u to be sad, i juz wan u to be happy..it doesnt matter whether we are together anot..as long as u r happy, i m happy too.. =) i juz wan u to be happy.remember tat.and for now,ashiteru.i m sorry!

gotttta go..ciaoz!2.21am

spiritually_yours at 2:04 AM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

hey people!!!!
did u guys miss me like crazy???
haha...

anyway yeah O level going to end le...
then i can go out with my babes and hunks soon!!
lol.....
so many...so uncountable..
haha..brought my prom clothes alreadyyyy...aint going to say anything..
haha..whoever going tat day, will know liao..haha..

anyway i actually went to meet serene today..ya..cos pass her the tickets..
then she wan me to accompany her awhile then later meet her bf lor..
so we are at amk..haha...

ya..then we went to play pool...lol..she pay.but she say i waste her money..dots.. =(...but she say in a joking manner la..haha she cut her fringe..haha..quite nice la..then she dye hair too..hmm..then i saw aaron photo(serene's stead)..lol..not bad la..all same colours..haha so loving...
she very famous sia in amk..lol muz be all thanks to her stead ba..who ask him live there..haha...
then we chat and talk about how's life and everything..oh ya.. she took from me 8 tickets of "tertiary fling" on 23 nov..which means she going to bring 15 friends with her...!! cos one ticket = 2 entry...yup yup!! cool cool!! haha
..then i left with 7 tickets..hmm..probably going to give some to vincent and his friends..lol...see la..he say he will respond me..then i will be so done with the tickets!! lol..
maybe will be seeing sere after prom..lol
well wad can i say..quite fun la..haha..
we went to guardian later on..
cos she wanna buy makeup remover...then there's tis two guys outside la..they both kept whistling at us...then serene turn to me..i was like :"for u la!" haha...
well i guess we dress a little overboard ba..lol..serene wear so nice the now fashion short..and aaron bought for serene a top..then she put some heavy makeup..hmmm..nice..for me i wear a pink top and a micro-mini skirt.. =X... skimpy ma??hahaa.....i dun find tat ba..its juz me..lol.and serene..lol...then serene was like:'hey can we dun walk tat way again i dun wan to see those guys"..haha..so i was like..how to when there is only one way..lol..then later she went raiders find aaron..i go home...
yeah..tml my sister's competition at eastpoint...ya 1-5...go see if u can make ittttt!! haha...

miss her so much siaaaaa..haha..serene hahaaa....ok i go le..go eat my cheese fries!! haha..sister bought for me..yeah she rocksssss!!! ciao!!! 10.25pm

spiritually_yours at 9:52 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

hey hows everyone doing here?

haha juz wanna say tat i been studying with zhichyim for e past two days..lol he is my ex tuition pal..ya had been a great friend!! i still remember e time we were 16..lol i had night tuition with him and some other friends..including ben..lol..those times were e most enjoyable..he stayed at bishan also..so we often go home together...then ben,very naughty!! he always take me and my friends rubber bands..then make us chase after him until e bus interchange opp!! ugh!!the worst part was..we had to hold on to our ponytail while chasing him.....then i will always like:"BEN I WANT MY RUBBER BAND NOW!!OOOI IDIOT!!UGH!!" u know wad kind of expression he give me.e.i-dun-care-dun-give-a-shit-to-return-yr-rubber-band expression..haha..now i think back, its quite childish..but its not my fault!! ben started first!!! oh ya.then zhichyim will always hug the pole..pillar i mean.looking at us play.or juz stare at blank space...lol...zhi chiym is always a very patient and nice guy..lol..i m those type quite active de..always run around chasing ben cos he always bully me and my friends.and its like i and my friends always have to run!if it not rubber band incident, it will be e water bottle incident..spray at each other.or best..camera phone incident..wow..ALL THANKS TO BENJAMIN KOH!!..but then zhi chyim will always remind me to take e bus..haha..he sometimes juz laugh..but later on..we got in e bus.. nothing happen liao..lol..we juz sometime talk abt other things ba..haa..

ya..he fail Os..so he retake in ite..so happened bumped into one another one day,so decided to study together..lol..but so far ok la..haa..hope both of us pass ba..haah.kk ciao..nothing to write liao..tired le..night!!2.01am

spiritually_yours at 1:37 AM