maybe me and him are juz stubborn..refused to say out our true feelings..haiz..if only...it isnt this way...
tears is beginning to fill up my eyes.about to break forth..why m i crying?why?tears*
it juz tat things juz doesnt turn out e way it is when it really should be.i juz cannot accept it..smiles cover my tears but yet every night i m feeling e hurt... and i thought by running away from it, things would juz be better.but i really was so wrong ... i hate it now...it making it worse.
no one there to help me.why cant he juz say this in this blog music...
i dun wanna run away, i wanna stay forever..
i dun wanna be alone, no promises...
i juz wanna die in yr arms.....
if only he said it soon, things wouldnt have turn out worse for me....
i m not hopeful now...i juz hope i could juz stop running away from problems.
clubbing is not a good time for u to run away from yr problems. in fact, its better if u really juz mingle with yr friends.i was wrong in tat prospection..i thought clubbing was a form of running away in problems. but i was wrong...it brought it worse..and i seen the worst of it.
i had to wake up..if only he could speak of his words..and stop running from it.we both would be better...but now its seem like all hopes had been washed away..wad can i do?but to move on......
like wad ivey said to me once when i was in e worst of state:"where is e ahma i used to know who is strong and does not afraid of obstacles?" i muz be strong..really i muz.......u may say i m really tired of going into another relationship...really its true.. i juz hope tat e next relationship i go to..it will last.last in a good way. and not making use of it.....true love.
i give many people question marks..so now here's e answer..above all..i go clubbing to run away, to feel accepted by others..now i was wrong. my answer now, i wanna just go clubbing to mingle with my friends..and have fun..yup tats abt it..i should stop putting my problems into clubbing..it juz make it worse..
gotta go now, good night my friends.. thanks for standing beside me all these while..i love u guys alot really!! especially to helicia,ivey,cheryl..fad.yvonne...alex..candice,nana..sab...audrey..vincent.my godbro,greg..and syberian kor...u guys are e greatest..!! 2.17am
