hey bloggie..ok my taggie ok le..haha..haiz...this may be e last post i be writing before i left singapore...ya
but i m leaving in sorrow..haiz..dunno la..juz feeling sad ba...after all these years i wish to say something...

i realise that i still like to bottle things up...i really didnt changed..this is one thing i noticed..and to make matter worse, people around me began to hate me, or even worried for me or get irritated by me..haiz...i juz couldnt speak up...there's far too many lies i told to my family.

probably like wad my godbro once told me:"u had to be true to yrself..speak up and dun make blunder.this is e real U i wan to see"..i juz hope tat i will be like this..i know i will.i juz need faith.there's still alot of things for me to say..i juz dunno how to start.

i juz wanna say tat i do cherish all my friends..but at times, i knew i m not a good pal...i m sorry..i m juz too emo..lol..this is me ba..i m still emo though...the thought of going hongkong juz creeps me.will i ever be happy there? will i even be happy when i come back? will suddenly someone juz came up and say the three magical words to me when i m back?.....lol.. .......i dunno..i really dunno

all i know was, i m a dreamer.. i m always in my own fairytale..tats what most of my close friends said abt me..i nv thought of putting myself in reality...i always wan to think tat everything around me is beautiful..even when its beautiful, i myself thought tat it isnt as beautiful as i thought it would be.its complicating.

at times, i do get angry..it juz tat i dun wish to show it...and then i bottled it up...its like a cap tat nv open...maybe......i m juz too naive.i cant be happy.

everyone thought i had boyfriend..in fact, i do not have. cos i nv said.lol..its abit random la..haha.i m like other princess waiting for my knight in shining armour..will he ever arrived?

i had a friend who used to tell me this:"sam, u know something, u look like those kind of girls who badly need someone to protect u.its like u were so naive..and yet u dun look like e strong type.." haha..maybe ba... maybe i juz hide my weakness in my strong attitude.. many a times, i tried to cry, but still there is no tears for it to flow down.i juz too strong ba..haha..maybe they were right, i need someone.but i didnt wan to be despo.i juz hope someone could juz open up my heart and teach me.this is all i wan.is it so hard to ask for?..i dunno..dunno wad to say already...

i juz hope tat, my friends..pls remember to be happy even when i m gone..Just let u guys know tat every single one of u all will be missed by me.cos all of u brought me nothing, but beautiful memories.memories tat will be kept inside my heart forever.=)

i juz wanna say a word of THANKS.to my closest friends who had been there though...serene(yr craziness..our secrets.for 6years now..haha!!),candice,helicia(my dancing partner!!).....

ivey(my grandson..dun be emo like me lei..be happy more k??), alex(although i know u for such a short time, u had proved yrself to be a good friend.thanks...u r not tat bad.i seen worse..lol...smilez*)

ben koh( u had always being there for me no matter rain or shine for more than 2 years now...when i badly need someone to hug, u are juz there...a shoulder to cry on..somehow, it began to feel like,it dosent matter we r together anot..cos its our friendship tat really pulls us together. still remember the time we quarrelled?and e time u hated me for being so irritating..lol... i truly,madly,love u as a friend and my godcousin..thanks for being so caring to me.this is really truly from my heart AND I KNOW...really la!! it will be in my head liao!haha!!)

yvonne..thanks for being there for me..and i will always remember all e crazy things we did..haha...audrey..i love u my darling!! u r such a sweetie...haha..cheryl!! my volcano..always love u k?be crazy forever..haha..fad..my hot babe..i love u to e max...muackz* u always make me high!!..one more gal...bearbear..yeah new name..haha..i m going to miss all e chats we had in msn...haha...and u girl...be happy always k?smilee more..dun always think u r ugly..u r not..u r cute! hee..
my godbro greg..be happy...no matter wad..pls smile...=) i still be there...

my godbro, Syberian..cant help but to mention yr name again..haha..remember our crazy, stupid talks in msn...and all those crazy things we used to talk abt..lol...and my confider..and someone who know me very well..hmmmmm..our secrets.sshhh.dun tell..haha..


noneetheless some of my working partners..it had been a fun time,working with u guys..i seem nothing more than a true friendship in each of yr hearts! haha..although know u guys for such a short time, i noe we will be e best of friends forever..especially to amaryllis, kelly,melody,suyu,nicole,jasmine,stephen..thanksss!! haha...enough of thanks le..i sleepy liao.... i m leaving singapore on monday..aint going to say when i will be back..heee..have fun peeps!! hope to see u guys soon..i m really going to miss u guys!!!..2.48am

spiritually_yours at 1:59 AM