dear diary,
today i had a good day..hmm i sound so cheesy..lol...anyway...ugh!~~!!
damned~~~!!! i think i will had a hard time once my homework starts..cos i think mostly my work will be on e com and all..then how m i suppose to do??? somemore my 2nd sis need to use to research for her JC thing..and my 3rd sister need to use for her school project!!! i m so fed up!!ahhhhhhhhh...... howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..........how can i do it with ONE COM IN E ROOM!!!!
i really wanna make it thru to this IT thing..tears*..and i noe school going to get tougher once the actual term really starts..ugh!!! i juz dunno how la... i feel very bad if i use other people's com...then i will had to return so late...then next day got school..wa lao!!
i cant possibly get a laptop now cos financially, i m not supported..and i didnt wan my parents to spend so much on one damned laptop...ugh!! i m damned pissed!!
ahhh...tats e reason why u guys didnt see me online much often cos i couldnt use e com most of e time....
zzzzzzzz....
one more thing, i chosen my cca..one is ODAC and another one is students' council..lol..together with nas and quinton and fabian..haha...hmm as to why i chose these two ccas becuz..one thing, ODAC, train me to be more independent,and my mentality will be stronger..and i thought ODAC will be served as a challenge to me becuz firstly, i admit, i m afraid of heights but i wanna learn..i wanna learn to do rock-climbing becuz i think it will be a great exposure for me. increasing my dare rate. in life, there are many obstacles and i think if i had the determination to do something, i can pull it thru.from young, i admit,i was timid and weak, but then somehow as i grow older, i realise that there are many things i had yet to learn.. for example, i always close my eyes when i m on roller coaster rides and i will start screaming like hell..,but there comes a time, when i actually open up my eyes during e ride..and i realise it isnt tat scary afterall..things may juz not wad it seem when u assume it, why not juz open up yr heart and look at how things goes. i hope i really can pass thru the survival camp when ODAC is into position for us,freshman.. yeah
the other cca is students' council. students' council..one thing good is tat.it build up leadership in u, and thats what i wan. students council also teaches us to be more confident, there will also be camps and first aid course for us to learn..i think it is a good cca..why not i juz try right..but tat is if i can pass thru the interview...lol
hmmm...yeah...i think its going to be hectic but i dun mind, juz bring it on. i m going to learn to balance my time well..studies,cca, and love. i m not going to be like last time anymore..ya.juz hope la..
k la i better go eat first then do some work.... to my friends and loved ones out there, no matter wad situation u are going thru, juz remember tat u r not alone, and u had to be strong. Cos i m sure e situation tat u r going thru will pass thru if u had the will to learn to think out of e box.if one method failed, then try another method.dun give up.Once u give up,then all hopes are shattered.For me to say this to u now, maybe its easier to be said than done.but pls dun think it this way, no matter how hard it is, juz keep on trying..u never know wad miracle u will get. determination,belief and self-cofident muz be in yr heart ok?yeah..jia you!!
hmmm...now i know wad to do with my IT thing already la..think out of e box..lol..ya i will think la, if its really inconvienient then let me know ba..diao..haha..kk i go le...
nightz people..lol..
