ahhhhhh....geex....
its being quite long since i updated my bloggie..hehe..
everything juz happen so fast...ha...
like my boy,everything seems to be going well for us..he been nice to me,even came to school to fetch me..so sweet of him and e best part was he like e song tat i like it before...Jay zhou, 'shi jie mo re' meaning in english..the end of the world..its damned touching...
yeah..really nice.haha...
now it seems like everyone of us are getting to know each other better. yeah. tats really good to hear..alot of things had happen in my class..i prayed tat one day,these things will be forgotten and vanished. To me, friendship is really important..i can say that i been thru many incidents before..i cried and nearly committed sucide before.backstabbing,malicious events,use of violence...and i was nearly suspended from school last year...yes its true. and i learn from it.all of us make mistake, if they really are your true friends, they will forgive and forget it, and as the one who make the mistakes,learn from it..
dun think juz becuz i came from a good school,i am a well-behaved student..no..its not true. my close friends and i were quite tired of the way how my school ever brought to media once and again..its like..i m feeling so much pressure,cos whatever i do outside might affect me tremounously cos my school is recognized in public. and yes, can say tat i pon tan school many times last year..reason been,i have a very long friendship problem and i see no point for me to come to school if i m facing this problem everyday..but luckily for me,after one incident, i make new friends..that how i met all my crazy lava babes,ivey and helicia......
one person tat really stood by me is ivey..she had been there for me for a long time.ya..thanks =)
another girl..named. fadhilah. she's the one who is my History class partner,my crazy duper babe..we loved e same songs...WATCHED DA VINCI CODE TOGETHER...hahaha..pon tan cross country..juz to watch...ssssssh!! dun say..haha.. and even though she's a malay..she always tries her best to learn chinese too..haha..and her laughter is contagious. and mind u, SHE'S SUPER HOT.haha..how i wish i can see her more often...cos her bf studying in my school..geex.
anyway i will say more soon...lol
haiz..actually..sometimes i juz felt i dun have e freedom at home..why?cos whenever i dun feel like talking, i was forced to talk by my mum.i juz dun feel like talkin..and if i tell her, i need space..she will tell me this.. "wad space do u need?there's no such things as space, either u talk properly or leave the house"...then like i will feel so fucked up la...she will also think like :"u dun like to talk to me is it,hate me so much huh?" like..wad de la..
i really need some spaces to juz keep quiet and manipulate my thoughts..got wrong meh?
ugh..wad to do.this is life.had to accept it.
and then sooner or later my emotions will be boiled up..thanks to clarence. ugh~~!!!
if he's not going to change..all my vulgarities will start shootin at him..and its e first of its kind..yeah. no one had ever see me blowed up..except family la..but not often.lol..
i m sick and tired of him irritating the class..
so fucked up right now..but i shant think too much..everyone have their bad days so do I..
i juz need a breather right now..I DUN SMOKE...meaning..need some fresh air..before everything start boiling up.....kk thats all for now..
ciaoz!!
