hello bloggie!!

haha so glad to say hi to my blog...
anyway yeah..i m happier now..so happy!!

thanks to tasha and mas for talkin to me last night..and also to YY...really hugs u guys lot!!
tasha and mas..keep singing songs la..make me go dreamland more..lol...

today i went to Sengkang meet huibing and sai..go do some class shopping..hahaha...
then afterwhich i went to meet mas..go watch movie with him...
and mas so nice, bought me sundae pie from MOS burger at cine..haha.i m soooo touched..no worries..i will treat u next time.. =)thanks!!!!.watch transformer!!!
it was way cool and nice..and i seriously didnt regret watching it~
oh ya..my stupid slipper broke...then mas ask me go buy new one..then i say dun wan..lol..
then we met one security and he give me masking tape..hahahaa
then aftertat me and mas went to walk around at orchard...suddenly tasha and sham called...ya return tasha's key..haha..so went to cityhall meet them..then we thought they coming out to join us..in e end..geex no...
then later i and mas went to marina..look for subway for my younger sis..
look everywhere!! lost ourselves..but managed to find la...haha..then walk around...
then we go esplanade there to chill..he met some of his friends..lol..
then like..both of us try to noe each other better..yeeah...as friends la..and we got big plans coming up!! haha..planning to share with sham and tasha..lol...

alright sleepy le..going sentosa with vic,aud,eliza...
one more thing,vic, pls dun feel guilty or anything la... we still friends and yeah..=) speak to me like i normally did to u the past few days..yeah... i can do it, i dun see why u cant. its not yr fault.it juz tat its broken,but still my friendship with u wont be affected..yeah..u can do it la.
cos like i told u before..we did things when we are friends but we didnt do things when we are together...and one of it is playing pool..and pls hor..I DUN SUCK AT POOL..U SUCK MORE..=p

i wanna post something tat i feel so touched abt and tat is a post tat my twin wrote to me in his blog.....thanks my twinee sham!=)

TO MY GOTH TWIN Current mood: crushed
Hey Samantha, i know you feel sad and all but all i want you to know tht I'm your twin and I know how you feel.. and I'll let you use my shoulder to cry on...... I'll be there for you okay twin?at these times i know life is hard... try to look at the good sides of it.... I'll cry with you okay? if i can cry ah...


really really sweet of u... i will try to look at things on e bright side now cos got u guys!.. *smilesz* *love ya*
also..aud...thankssss for being there with me =) dun be sad le... u got us~! i can smile..so u can smile too..love u girl~~

spiritually_yours at 2:02 AM

i really dunno wad i m feelin right now..maybe i m juz being emo..

ever since the break,many people had been asking me out...



pls..i know..i will go.for friends' sake..i treasure them.but sometimes i juz wanna be alone...



these few days...i had been emo..yet i still tries to be strong...

i thought abt those words u say..

maybe i m juz thinking alot..i dunno...



all those memories i had with u kept coming back...

especially during tasha's bdae..the memory of us eating cake together in my chalet...juz flash past...i almost cried.but i hold back my tears...nobody saw..nobody knows...

in e mrt with tasha and co..listening to music..makes me moody..

going to orchard..makes me emo too..

but sometimes remind me of serene..lol..ok..tats so random.haiz



and also tis morning, i cried while i was in e shower.

the time when we were at esplanade..how u first know me and stuff

cos i remember u playing with my hair while i was asleep in yr bed.

it juz so hard for me to forget.

suddenly it juz gone like tat...

listening to "your call" makes me upset too..

cos tats e time when we tries to know each other better.

when u told me "wad if i see other girls on e streets?"

and i said.."it was alright =) " and i seriously mean it.

those words u say to me..i still remember it deep in my heart...

even when i listen to happy songs..it juz didnt help...it make things worse..

even when i go to bishan library today...



it juz so hard..so hard...



if only i can put all these words into a song..



if only..everything can start afresh...

i miss yr hugs and kisses..and yr love..

no matter where i go..no one can ever replace u in my heart.

u may think..i love u too much..but tats juz me..

u may think its mushy..cos feelings aint there for u..



yes..i tries to be strong..u ask me if i ever go on..

its take time...

i noe tat u had been reading my blog ever since we together..

it juz didnt appear to me tat u wil read my blog after we break..i m sorry.



it juz my feelings..u dun have to bother if u dun wan to...



i juz hope tat..wadever u saw here..pls dun dun avoid me..i dun wan tat to happen..

yeah...



i and aud took lots of photos today in school..miss e times i m back in st margs..all those memories...how i first know serene..how aud left her photos at the coronation centre..then i said i noe the girl to e auntie..and tats how i know aud.my beloved loved one in st margs


sometimes it juz hurts and worry me when u did not take care of yrself..
now it really beats me why do i had to go to such extreme to make a good dinner for u, when i dunno if u care..
hmmm..its a funny feeling..
sometimes i juz wanna give u a ring, but i m afraid to do so..
i did stuffs tat u told me before..

right now..all i can say is every where around me is changing..
my place to sleep in the room..
i got a new handphone...
i even felt myself changing..i became more vain towards myself.
but one thing i know tat hasnt change..
was e feeling towards u..
u think its a matter of time tat its going to change..
but u r wrong..
it will take a long time..or maybe..juz maybe never..
i dun wanna hope for so much but then hope its true la..

dunno..yeah i been listening to this song past few days...
it doesnt make any sense to me ..but still i love this song..maybe it does..dunno..kk i got class tonight...and need to return friend key.. ciaoz

spiritually_yours at 7:19 PM

i juz dun wan this thing to go away so fast...



i still love u.can u juz give it one more chance?

so wad if u treat friends better than gal.i dun mind.i seriously dun..and i noe wad to do already..

i juz hope u give it one more try.dun juz let tis relationship go to waste. i know it will work out if we both willing to compromise..can u?tears*



many tears tat i cried..have u even noticed?

do u even care?

i cant find a better one more than u do.

i know i m sticky and i told u before,if i m sticky,let me know.

i will change.



and this time round i really will change for the best.

perhaps....u juz haven see it..and its true.



maybe u feel i m juz too sticky.i dunno wad i m feeling right now,cos u r e first guy tat convinced my parents tat we are togeter and they ok with it

u r e first guy tat changed me. do u really wan me to be so bad like last time..two-timing?

no way..i m not going back to tat kind of life already.i m tired and sick of tat .....

i been thru alot..

suddenly it juz happen so fast, i couldnt accept it.





where is e victor who cared so much abt me..tears*

i really lost him..if u have found him,can u tell him tat i need him..

maybe these words are juz too mushy for him right now...tears*

maybe i should juz let it go..

i cant..why..

all the things u said to me, i will do it straightaway now..its nv too late..cos i still hasnt give up on u...

it juz hurts u know.hurts so much more than i been thru previously.

and i m sick.so sick.but no one cares.

i m sticky..i wont let tat happen ever again.cos u dunno me.

i cant be e one tat cheer u up..again i said..u dunno me.u juz hasnt seen it yet.

anything u doesnt like me to do, i wont do...

i wan to be strong..but it juz doesnt work out.

i juz wan u here.maybe u dun seee it a point.

but i do..cant we juz compromise..cant u juz open up yr heart.?

we did so much for this relationship and yet u r giving up juz like tat..are u sure?

all i ever ask for is juz a patch back.is ttat so hard?

tears*





wads e point of me saying all these...u r not going to read anyway..i guess..tears*



i juz came back from camp not long and things juz happen so fast..

glad i made many new friends..and to all my loved ones thanks for been with me throughout the camp...i enjoyed e disco night..AND THANKS AR TO TASHA FOR SABO-ING ME AND QUINTON TO DANCE TOgether!!i thought we will backout fast..but bloody hell..finalist!! ugh!



haiz dunno la..i juz know tat after the talk with u, i totally changed..i not going to be sticky anymore if u dun wan me to be..if u dun wan me to commit so much, i wont too.
i still do love u.

dun think u will read too..or maybe u will..i dunno..

ciaoz for now.

spiritually_yours at 7:03 PM

Hmm i have lots of fun during sentosa today as u can see from e pictures below..haha..
well, yesterday, really wanna apologise for not going online and chat with some of u guys cos i have to help a friend..yeah...

the next 3 days i wont be online..will be going for camp...and i juz wanna say some words to someone here...juz hope that u will take care of yourself ok ?make sure dun let yr temper gets too over yr head ok. =) .chill more,play more games...have some fun.do wad u wan..juz wan to see u happy..haha.k.but dun do illegal things behind my back ar..the next thing u know, i will come after u!! hehe...

hmm i didnt like my bikinis.going to get a new one,if not,serene! better return me back my yellow tini winny bikinis.lol...haha..hmmmm..i shall go buy more..hahahahaha.....


kk gotta go le...think alot of people looking for me.. cos i m their sorcerer..lol..ugh!! dunno why my mum wan me to repeat my words..maybe she abit deaf..as always.wad to do..nothing i can say now...

i going to miss my home...hmmm...i think there's a few things i have to do i think..maybe not now to think..ya chill chill have fun looking at e pic..





yanrong & huibing.

spiritually_yours at 10:59 PM

ahhhh..sianz..

haha..past few days had been so hectic...met baby on friday after badminton..geex he keep on suaning me by making stupid faces when i m eating..yeah...then went to uk funfair..then juz see see look look..didnt play e rides.cos quite ex..actually i wanted to..but then..baby doesnt wan..so like..nv mind lor.forget it lor..at e most i go with another guy..go play and have lots of fun...hehehehehehe....jealous?maybe not...then went library to chill...yeah.

then yesterday went out with my ex-collegues....went to play pool..then went to meet serene..go town and all...YEAH I M SO GLAD TAT SHE'S COMING 2ND JULY!!! hahaaha..this time i had to go her place first then go together...which means i had to wake up damned early..geeeeeex~!!!cos she will be such a piggy...so have to go her place and call her out...

on sat..went to grandma house...yeah...family keep asking for baby...but ahya..juz say tat he's been busy..yeah..tats nothing else i can say wad...

hmm..then wad else...oh ya..stupid YY..he going to get it from me..during sc camp!!keep suaning me..lol...and yeah..me,YY and huibing will be taking o level this year..so wish us luck~!

tml i going sentosa with some of my classsmates..mostly my sisters in crime..haha..doris, huibing and yanrong...


anyway..also..something is wrong with me..or is it juz tat in relationship girls feel this way?
i dunno why..but u will get jealous over lil tiny things..and get angry abt it. and u juz wont say it..even if u know e truth..u still feel hurt..but juz accept it..u can say i m thinking alot..but in actual fact, i think most girls in relationship will feel this way..some can show tat they are angry or jealous..but some cant..people like me..or i juz cant accept the fact tat i m growing up....hmmmmmm......

ok my mood changed now...haha i m happy.crazy me..kk..hear yeah~!

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