i really dunno wad i m feelin right now..maybe i m juz being emo..
ever since the break,many people had been asking me out...
pls..i know..i will go.for friends' sake..i treasure them.but sometimes i juz wanna be alone...
these few days...i had been emo..yet i still tries to be strong...
i thought abt those words u say..
maybe i m juz thinking alot..i dunno...
all those memories i had with u kept coming back...
especially during tasha's bdae..the memory of us eating cake together in my chalet...juz flash past...i almost cried.but i hold back my tears...nobody saw..nobody knows...
in e mrt with tasha and co..listening to music..makes me moody..
going to orchard..makes me emo too..
but sometimes remind me of serene..lol..ok..tats so random.haiz
and also tis morning, i cried while i was in e shower.
the time when we were at esplanade..how u first know me and stuff
cos i remember u playing with my hair while i was asleep in yr bed.
it juz so hard for me to forget.
suddenly it juz gone like tat...
listening to "your call" makes me upset too..
cos tats e time when we tries to know each other better.
when u told me "wad if i see other girls on e streets?"
and i said.."it was alright =) " and i seriously mean it.
those words u say to me..i still remember it deep in my heart...
even when i listen to happy songs..it juz didnt help...it make things worse..
even when i go to bishan library today...
it juz so hard..so hard...
if only i can put all these words into a song..
if only..everything can start afresh...
i miss yr hugs and kisses..and yr love..
no matter where i go..no one can ever replace u in my heart.
u may think..i love u too much..but tats juz me..
u may think its mushy..cos feelings aint there for u..
yes..i tries to be strong..u ask me if i ever go on..
its take time...
i noe tat u had been reading my blog ever since we together..
it juz didnt appear to me tat u wil read my blog after we break..i m sorry.
it juz my feelings..u dun have to bother if u dun wan to...
i juz hope tat..wadever u saw here..pls dun dun avoid me..i dun wan tat to happen..
yeah...
i and aud took lots of photos today in school..miss e times i m back in st margs..all those memories...how i first know serene..how aud left her photos at the coronation centre..then i said i noe the girl to e auntie..and tats how i know aud.my beloved loved one in st margs
sometimes it juz hurts and worry me when u did not take care of yrself..
now it really beats me why do i had to go to such extreme to make a good dinner for u, when i dunno if u care..
hmmm..its a funny feeling..
sometimes i juz wanna give u a ring, but i m afraid to do so..
i did stuffs tat u told me before..
right now..all i can say is every where around me is changing..
my place to sleep in the room..
i got a new handphone...
i even felt myself changing..i became more vain towards myself.
but one thing i know tat hasnt change..
was e feeling towards u..
u think its a matter of time tat its going to change..
but u r wrong..
it will take a long time..or maybe..juz maybe never..
i dun wanna hope for so much but then hope its true la..
dunno..yeah i been listening to this song past few days...
it doesnt make any sense to me ..but still i love this song..maybe it does..dunno..kk i got class tonight...and need to return friend key.. ciaoz
