wahahaha....
now in school now...so bored...
hmm cannot call chang stupid cos its teacher's day...
haah..today i went back sch with my mama yvonne.hahaha
then met yongling as well...
hmm..met a few of my ex classmates..
lol..
i wore my ite uniform there cos later on i go school ma..
then ya...they had some performance not bad la...
the nicest was faiz and amy's team of battacuda...together with their band...they played drums all e way...damned nice la...
haha then met with some of my teachers...hmm...my bio teacher jean tan whom had taught me for 6 years already!! hahaa..not only bio but my dance teacher-in-charge. although i used to say i didnt really like her..but she's nice la..she encourages me alot..yup yup.haha
and also some teachers...even ms kee..she was like..:" hmm...IT is a in-thing now...good good"hahahaha..funny sia!!!
then my history teacher and my social studies teacher..yeah they were encouraging me too..
then aftertat me and yvonne left...hah.
yvonne went to work at IT fair...
i go back sch..
nua until now.....geex..mr chang giving some class thing...then dun wan to entertain us..ugh!!!..
i better dun be late or else serene will kill me..haha.
going to work with her at swiss club...instant pay..hmmm..who dun want!! hahaha...
going to miss u cos next two days i be busy..haiz..miss u..kk i go le..go check out on tasha..haha.
spiritually_yours at 3:26 PM
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
love my blog song??
haha i love it too!!!
so nice la....
hahaa...
anyway thanks to dar... for coming over my place to help me with module 10 test..
lol we did together..hahaa do it well too...so love u boy!
hmm...tml muz hang in the flash liao...
geex but my com got cropped up!!
ugh...but luckily i finished my webpage already..
now i juz left the music to put in my flash..lol..hmmm
think going to call for help tml...
ah..and mum throw me so many things to do la...somemore i doing my project the whole time..wah lao..think i superwoman ah...
cant she juz understand my feelings?
now she's hogging on e phone..then all those stuffs how?
must i clear up?
i m damned tired already la..
somemore tml i had to wake up go school, go night class..
ugh!!!!
so tired...dun wan to talk already..i very sleepy..
sweets,so loving today..
lol..we got lots of laugh too..
in school..had fun also..i played badminton with louise, then the girls came in..we played volleyball(and i sucks at it la!!)..then aftertat we head down to basketball court play basketball..then come back..rest and laugh..then we play a lil soccer..wah...damned shagged!!
haha...luckily customer service was last day manz..geex...
ah... serene darling i miss u woah!!
last time keep asking u to do blog, then u dun wan..
now u enjoying it la..hahahahaha...
sorry couldnt meet up with u these few days...
damned busy in school....hee hee...
i jio u go out on friday lor..wan anot?
haha..someone ask me to call u to go..lol...
kk will sms u soonz.loves..take care!! miss u guys!
spiritually_yours at 11:19 PM
i forgot to add something~!!
my 2nd sister stacey juz cut her hair...
damned she almost got e same hairstyle as me manz!!
and isnt it cool now..we get to style each other hair..wahahahahaaha..
kk go sleep now...
i had to go school tml..nightx!!
haiz..so many works..exam coming..project...then work....geex...and fan club...wad to do..this is life..haha.
spiritually_yours at 11:14 PM
I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!
i thought go there can see my beloved melody...sianz...she say she will hug me when i come.. =( but then they spoil my hopes..geex...
haha we went tpy there to take some pic..
hmm i llook ugly aey?hahaa...
louise hold me so tight...lol..sweet..
anyway i m feeling better already yupyup...
thanks to all my friends..really thanks u guys for been concerned..ya dun worry k?
i m feeling better le..hee
i been listening to alot of music these few days...
sort up keeping up to date....yeah..
on friday i think i had fun..
me and yy play and play in e bus..
cos the previous night we were watching a chinese stupid movie..
then i watch...
damned stupid la..
then he go and imitate all e stupid people...make me laugh so hard!!!
geex...
then work and work..haha
i got bonus on sat...yeah..hehehe...
hmmm....then today i was talkin to roy..then he put me on loudspeaker sia..
wad de.. make me talk to goddaddy as well...geex
then aftertat i dunno wad they talking...
SOMEMORE CALL ME AUNTIE!! WAD DE!!
IDIOTIC ASSHOLES..!!
aud i love ya.
haha juz feel like saying tat..lol..
hmm..wait someone jealous..
love u.loves
hehehehe....
after i got enough money i so going to look good on myself..
alright happy viewing the pictures~~!! hee
spiritually_yours at 10:43 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
La da da da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forseek the dark ahead if I stay
[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Yeah
[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
La da da da da da
spiritually_yours at 6:24 PM
i m sorry about everything...
i m sorry abt my attitude tat i shown to u, tasha.
really sorry. its not your fault.. it juz my own personality..i m sorry.
its juz tat..i juz couldnt see any bonding...
we promised tat we will stick togethher...as team 9 &10...
and yet..
u guys juz did a team and left me & some of us doing a the game...
is this wad we called stick together?
and when we go our own ways,u guys didnt even bother to call me or ask anything.
is this wad we called friends.?
wad m i to u guys?
u all only bothered to call sai, huibing and louise...
how bout me??
where m i actually standing??
left 5 girls!!
wad...is this??.....
how u think i feel...
and i had to do so much work..
u may say i m sensitive but cant u think?
fine take it as this is one of my stupid attitude.
i m juz thinking too much...
but it juz hurts...
i juz dun wan history to repeat itself again..
i dun wan to turn against any of my friends...
its my stupid attitude..i get angry easily..
and without thinking too much, i juz walk away and go home..
and i cried.
why? having mixed feeling... a sense of guilt, sadness,angryness in me..
i dun even noe whether i should be angry or sad.its juz so...
i dunno how to say.
they say "big girls dun cry"
maybe i m juz a lil kid afterall...
i need to work this feeling out myself. afterall we are all classmates.but..haiz..i dunno.
ciaoz.
spiritually_yours at 5:48 PM
look wad i done!!!
haha..using photostudio..lol....
artistic?...hahahaa
hmm i make it very simple..
cos its simple love.
haha..thanks for e keychain love..it was sweet of u..and the purple box...awwww...
loves~!!
haha...we went to watch the jay zhou movie..hmm not bad la..haha
eat alot manz...
we eat nachos..
then i didnt take my dinner..
so i buy the pasta...
then nacho...
hahahah drinks...
then aftertat..go back..i fell asleep..damned tired...
oh ya and i juz had oral today..hmm..not bad la..
can do la..haha..juz a lil nervous i guess....
anyway i gotta go already..nightz.
haha..good luck dar..jiayou!!
spiritually_yours at 12:19 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
yeah..here are some pics i took with eliza..and also cam whore with tasha and shikin in e toilet!!haha..i love them manz!!
anywa.y..i went for the dance program today...
wahaha...hmm i will definitely give it a shot..cos its like a part time course for me.. dance course..not bad aey?somemore its going to help in my overall GPA results if i dun do well for my IT course..hahaha...and i gett to go hongkong for cultural exchange..i m going to learn alot of dances..yeah!!i love comtemporary..hmm..this thing can let me loose weight..good good good..haha
i and louise love it to e max manz..it juz reminds me of dance back in sec school..ahhh..those days..but i m happy tat louise is going to be with me..yeah!!
the dance teacher and instructor were like quite impressed with our batch today..they didnt expect us to be so good..well its an audition..!!
haha..tomorrow there's another audition...hmm..wish my sweetie luck..all e best!!
oh ya.after 12midnight liao..haha. dar, happy 1st month anniversary! love u~
i feel sad tat i cant meet u today..geex.somemore its like so late la...
and today alot of people ask me out~~like wad de...serene,cheryl..
if its not, it will be people who want to talk to me..
sometimes i think i split myself too much tat i can forget my sleep..geex like now..ugh...
i dun wanna blame anyone la..its myself i guess...
yes..emo-ing away..as usual.dunno when will stop..it will only stop when i see two person..my love and my godcousin.
i wish tat i can juz turn off my phone and juz live in my own world..
but damned its not going to happen...
geex..anyway..i went out with cheryl today..wad sia she so into clubbing now..haha...
and she dance in e toilet..gosh!! both me and her also camwhore alot..hahaha...in my phone!!haha..and her phone..well wad to do when u get two lava babes~~!!haha....ok..happy viewing my pictures..
now i m beginning to realise i m getting more and more popular..heeheehee..ok better stop self prais-ing myself..hahaaahhahaah..
nightx all~!!
check out my photoshop test..haha
me & shikin & tasha
spiritually_yours at 12:09 AM
spiritually_yours at 11:52 PM
well to start off, the past few days i was quite emo...
cos its like..i dun understand my family some time..ugh~!! cant stand the noise in my house~~!!
and also alot of things on my mind lately la..and its like..i always alone la..even though i know there are friends around me..
then today... also... but then for some godddamit reason, its always still e same old person who nv fail to cheer me up..thanks to my godcousin, ben koh..
i dunno why la...its like...WOAH!
hardly anyone can ever cheer me up straightaway..
sometimes i juz try and be happy..but then...ya..u know..
one thing for me is i been thinking alot abt e past.
dunno why also..its not e places i went and stuffs like..
its more like..my character...i felt i m juz too easy..
ugh..stupid feeling...
then miracularly..the only person tat can cheer me up is my godcousin.
why...
today i went to work at coronation plaza there..not bad la...
then help ivey collect her book from ben koh..
but then tat bloody asshole will nv ans my calls and sms..
and he make me drenched in e rain,
and make me wait for him for so long near his block..juz to help ivey pick up e book...
i dun care..he owe me a big meal..oh ya and he call me TOOT.idiotic bastard!! ugh!!!
i think some people close to me will start asking me.."do u like back yr godcousin?"..my answer will be...
no...i only treat him as my godcousin and tats tat..yes he is someone tat i will nv forget at all and he will.... i think..be e only one tat cheer me up so far.cos i know him since i was 16...three years now aey?
both of us been thru alot together..and we realise tat both of us had better be friends rather be in relationship..yup...we both agree on tat.
yup so wad if he knows my family...no matter wad i still will invite him to my place as a good friend.=) cos my family dun mind him too.
i only can say tat..the time we meet up past few months is like..once in a bluemoon..so can say..its once in a bluemoon for today....hahaha.
and funny,the moment he come i happy already..its like all e problems are all gone now...i juz dunno wad he did la..ugh..maybe he's too crappy..like wad ivey said..
i tell u ar...
he is e slowest guy i ever met.!!!!
and i cant wait to use a parang to hit at him...
and he now will start calling me "sotong"...
idiotic bastard..u better watch out...now i m more evil liao...whahahahahaha...
wait till i learn my defence well then we will see..hahahaha
and since when tat idiotic godcousin start to care for me? ask me go home early..cos of the seventh month..hmmmmmmmmm....funny guy...always make me vomit blood.when will u stop manz?? i think never...ugh!!!
yesterday..i met STEPH YONG!!! I SO HAPPY TO SEE HER MANZ!!!!
she was like:"sam,i very long nv see u already..omg!" luckily we arrange to meet up next week..haha..
hahaha..then someone jealous..y i so happy to see one person..the stupid human jealous..lol....
i miss my one & only.
yeah really.
miss u~!!nightx
spiritually_yours at 11:12 PM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
sometimes i wonder...
do some people have to wait till i m attached till then they can be attached?
hmmmm...
if thats so,i noe e reason why..afraid tat i m get hurt.
i remember one of my friend used to tell me this, :"sam u know u r someone i felt..who always need protection,need someone to be there for u always.but yet sometimes u r tough and strong."
maybe wad my friend say is true..or maybe not..
i mean..yeah..this has always happen in my life..seriously.
i mean wads up manz..its not as though i m going to come up with a parang and chop u guys off...
geex..i cherish friendship more than anything else..well for relationship..yeah.ahaha..
all i can say is i m happy in my life now...if really..u guys thought tat i will get hurt juz becuz u guys are attached to someone i love before or like..oh wells, u dunno me =)
even if so, it wont be long..i mean..everyone had to move on..and so i did,wads meant not to be mine,will not be mine.i believe in fate.
i been thru far too many relationships already..
and i knw how's is it like to get really hurt..being thru sucidual periods.and then it will nv happen again...
this is juz me la. dun have to feel tat i will get hurt la..i juz wanna say tat..yr friendship with me counts more than any other relationships..wad matter most is tat u guys cherish the friendship i had with u.
so far,i know of such person who had done tat..some people had hurt me before..really bad..yet..they sincerely show tat they really cherish their friendship with me,which makes me soften.
yup..i dun wish to have enemies..this is juz me la..i love everyone around me..
right now, my life is full of happiness.
yup.this i can say.
and also i m beginning to see some people true's colours thanks to someone..
it doesnt matter whether i see anot..
cos i aint going to do anything bad =)
spiritually_yours at 2:07 AM
some photos..hahahaha...took at tm...lol..that tasha,me,louise..damned louise so light!! haha
spiritually_yours at 2:50 AM
L.O.V.E
such a small word can mean so much.
wad is love?
everyone muz be pondering...
understanding.
trust.
if can,try and change for tat special person.
if cant, take yr time.
if a person really love u, they wont keep asking u to do it,but be patience abt it.
so its patience.in return,the person will understand and try to change. it does makes a big diff!!
sacrificing for love.( the most touching thing...haha..)
love is also when u see tat someone in front of u, u r happy.
happiness.
love is when u learn to forgive N forget and continue to love him/her.
love is no limitation.
it juz come naturally.
its when u realise tat u r missing tat person so much and u cant wait to see him/her again.
its also time.
it doesnt matter how far u r, u still will be missed by someone.
love is when u dun have to tell everybody who u r with.
u juz be yrself.
love is also when a person accepts all yr weaknesses & becuz of their weakness it became their strong point in life..
love is when u love to disturb one another with their own nonsense. tat is u and me.
its funny isnt it?
we never know how our feelings can juz mean so much to a person..
even holding a person's hand can make u go crazy.
this is cute..haha
anyway i went to watch "alone" it was really...ar....ok la..
hahahahaha..
the whole cinema was full of youngsters and even lil kids..
damned~
when e scary part come..u can hear the whole cinema screams..
me,yanrong,sai and da jie..we all like...
er.........................ok.....................hahahahahaha...
we aint scared la..haha..
i sit beside yanrong...so me and her were like..discussing wads e next scene..lol..
and expectally, its wad we predicted..haha
we having fun watching it rather than feeling scared abt it.funnny how i will think this way..lol...
hahaha...damned went to eat dinner at home..
hmm..today..i very guai..haha
i went to visit ivey then went to somewhere else
i have fun la...lol...
i miss every night we study together.
i missed e time,u make me lie over yr shoulder while i cried and play with my hair.
i miss the time we fights so much.
i miss e time u teach me things.
i miss the time we play.
i miss e time we walk at night.
i miss e time u first held my hand..
i miss the time we talk abt stuffs.
i juz miss u.
hey dun draw on yr hand k..pls dun..it makes my heart break.really.
yeah tml no schooll..hahaha..kk ciao!
spiritually_yours at 1:32 AM
Gazete- filth in the beauty (translation)
The reverse side of beauty It dyed by beloved filth. (Sexual disgrace) The reverse side of beauty It dyed by beloved filth.
The fascinating sea, the sunk fireflyIs it a lie that denial is superior to desire? In contradiction, the body colored from heat, In the caresses that overlap reason, The spring that melts into a dance, suddenly, Becomes dirty.
My mind which falls Your seed and my seed never mixes. The connection of this blood is eternal. You cannot finish suppressing the desire. To true daughter... [Sexual disgrace]
The pounding heart's hunger, whose sigh stops, Requests crimson that can understand.
Closet mind is distorted instability. Please release me before breaking. How long... In humiliation The countless fatal scar was born.
[Sexual disgrace] Prohibited bud... Reckless driving cucumber... The kin'collapses... Near relatives on death... The smell of a cigarette smell breath ＆ shit Moment that bitter white jam is mixed Inside of a brain caused an error and goes mad by the sweet bug
Your seed and my seed never mixes. The connection of this blood is eternal. You cannot finish suppressing the desire. To true daughter...[Sexual disgrace]
Your neck, the tip of your tongue and your hands crawl, The sought for facial expressions are dyed crimson.
Closet mind is distorted instability. Please release me before breaking. How long... In humiliation The countless fatal scar was born.
Closet mind is distorted instability. Please release me before breaking. So long... In humiliation The final art is your dead face Dad which fall to the trap
this song is so...me la...nvmind the lyric..hahahaha...its abt sex..but who cares. i m so in love with the screams in the song and the headbanging..and juz listen to how they played that guitar..my gosh.....!!!!! goddamit it so f**king rocks!!!
spiritually_yours at 11:38 PM
i actually find it sweet that u thought of me.
kawaii neh~!
its alright sweet.everything will be fine.=)
tired le.....tml wake up early go assembly...bleahx
funny i would go on national day..
wad to do..new friends..new life.
and i love them all together. so i should go all e more~!!!
hahaha.... ciaoz~~!!
hope my new phone work better..lol..its my dad old phone tat i carrying..lol..
another old phone..well wad to do..as long as its usable can already...
wait till i got my own money i will buy one for myself..hahaa...
lalallala....
spiritually_yours at 10:54 PM
lol.
ah...headache...ivey and helicia stayed over my house yesterday...hmmm..we did took some pic..but its in my phone and helicia's phone..maybe next time then upload..lol...
well...cant stand them la..they made me laugh until so hard till 4am+++...now i m having a very bad sorethroat...
yy give me some mag...then i took then show to them to read..then we were doing some personality chinese quiz..and u know my chinese sux right..so they keep laughing at my chinese...geex.busy listening to songs played by ivey too..
and we slumber and talk talk stuffs..wahahaa..girls talk~! duh!
then later on in e afternoon went to meet yy to study..study awhile...yup.yup..
then went home le..cos i was pretty tired...
and had been reading harrrry potter since then..wahahaa...
going to read finish le..its nice la..but i already noe e ending...lol....
hmm took some neoprints with eliza and amy...
and also owe tasha and quinton our neoprints..lol..feel free to see..ciaoz
PS:now u know e difference in my hair last time and now..lol....
night night..school tml~
spiritually_yours at 12:13 AM
http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=9403DAMNED I SO LOVED GAZETTE!!
THEY ARE SO DAMNED NICE...LA...HEADBANGING SIA~!!
I WAS BANGING MY HEAD WHEN I LISTENING TO THIS SONG..WAHAHAA
ROCK SIA....thanks to my grandson...lol..Ivey...wahaha
these few days i went to find her...haha..lol...yesterday..today also...
juz now went out with eliza..yup yup..shopping shopping..
haha then took neos..going to upload pictures soonxz...
hmm....then went to find my grandson...she didnt even tell me we watchin fireworks..then i so shua gu..haha..then wad sia no fireworks..
then wait for helicia...they both now at my house..hahaha..
intro me some gazette songs...damned cool la..i still like "filth in the beauty" this is wan headbanging song..hahahaha
ok ivey back....taking over..wahahaha..i hungry le..geex...ciaoz
spiritually_yours at 1:29 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
if u guys missed the show...ahhh..u missed a good show!
anyway..this show already long ago been showed on disney channel...lol had already watch it alot of times already..but i still like it..haha
why i like?
cos it reminds me of a past.a very romantic yet sad past..2years.patching break.patchin break.
so sweet and painful that i find myself changed so much..clubbing..and stuffs like..alcoholism for a period of time..rebellious for a lot of time..all thanks to someone..but i dun blame him.
he is my close friend now.
he acted in musicals...
he played basketball n
i like to sing..
but we never had a chance.
tats why i like "high school musical" so much.
i wish for a dream tat will nv come true then.
i practice tat song she sang alone.
i stopped cos i cried so badly..
nw..i stopped crying too..
cos of a past.
a past that cause my eyes turn red.
so hurt i been.
yet i should be happy and i willl.... hopefully...
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outsideI
'm standing here
but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
spiritually_yours at 12:22 AM
