Life is a stage, how about love? love is my light & darkness

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

do u still remember the time we were close?

how i realise its more than juz friendship at the sc outing?
this i never said cos i wasnt tat sure,until e night we separated.

and i still remember the time how i wish to see u every single day at school irritating me.
how u secretly put my ring into my finger in e student hub.
the night i cried terribly to u on e phone,and how u wan me to sleep and not think too much.
how the time u let me lie over yr shoulder on e bus.
and how we cycle and take photos in e bus.
how we ended up studying together when u come and find me.
i miss those times and still love this time.
for all e things tat i done,u never stop loving me.

tat day when i was drunk and u hug me tightly and say tat :" u're mine!"

i felt loved and i love u so and still.=)

and i still do believe we can make things right.

happy 8months and 6 days darling.still love u to e max.~!

spiritually_yours at 2:32 PM

Just came back from breakfast with my cousin.lol. we went mac at yck and starbucks at thomson.haha...had a great time talking abt stuffs.

well, somehow i been thinking alot.

not about my past. but about singaporean guys.

well was chatting with ivey yesterday.and one topic caught me suddenly.that is she said something about once u dated a foreigner, u will always ended up dating a foreigner.

maybe to me tats true.

somehow i began to lose my trust in singaporean guys.
u know, its really so hard to find a really good singaporean guy nowadays.

i been thru too much,and i seen enough scandals and flings tat i wish i see no more.

maybe u may say its will apply to most people.but think of it in another way.

i had reach a point where i lost total trust in going relationship with a singaporean guy.

whats e point of me waiting for someone who i love someone dearly and tat someone doesnt love me back?

it make sense right?

maybe i m juz not fated with singaporean guys.

i m happy with my current bf even though he is half singaporean,but i see him differently.

if ever things wont work out,u wont see me dated another singaporean guy.

maybe some singaporean guys are good la, but i seen too many bad ones.so dun blame me.

tats e whole opinion of singaporean guys.

i noe some of u guys might think : "hey come on! u are also a singaporean la..show some confidence in singaporean guys lei!"

well, its not tat i m not confident but so many many bad things had happen in my past relationship with singaporean guys, its hard to trust la.

at e most, i only can be friends with them but no more than tat.that is.

using sis's lappy again..haha....dammit.i hate it when tat period of e month came...gotta go ciaoz

spiritually_yours at 5:50 AM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Holiday here!!!~~~

yeah until 14 april...

then i will go for work attachment at upper paya lebar road.. with one of my new classmate!!

lol..

anyway been workin at scarlet lately...

loving e people there manz!!

once, i broke a decaner..and dammit its e first time i break things during work!!

cos i was scalded by hot water,and somehow it burned my left arm! little bit only la...

instead of scoldin me,they kept asking if i m fine...and stuffs like tat... :) so sweet right?

well make a number of good friends there...i love e crappy bartender...Alwi...my senior cum brother..lol...

my com currently down...cos i haven still reformatting my whole damned com..

now using youngest sister lappy...ssssh!!

haha

miss my classmates already!!

i miss tasha,louise,yen,yanrong,bingbing,sai,zeyma,doris.. hey hey girls!!

when is our next "girls night out"? lol....

my baby is working with me later in e evening at scarlet!!weeee so happy!

8 months de lei!!

haha yesterday went singing at scarlet with ben and alwi and berr..hhaha..fun la...then
me,ben and alwi sit down and S11 talk talk,trying to get to know one another better :)

really happy tat i noe themz..geex

hahah

k la i go le..wanna watch movie lei..lol...online la..

talking abt tat..i wonder how's my grandson in hongkong?? hope she's having fun!!! lol

so bo liao.haha

spiritually_yours at 3:38 PM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

handprint of love?

my beloved girlfriend and me. :)

too bored at home.hahaaa

.........candid shot by "aey hmm"

louise not talking to me,so i m bored in school...

spiritually_yours at 7:16 AM

yeah updated!! pretty sick...hehe...

flu and sore throat but still had to work..i currently not working at lunar anymore..cos i felt like..
maybe not for me i guess..

working with my godcousin,ben koh at scarlet.haha.
haven seen him for quite a while though..well the people there are very nice..

and a new bartender had came also..and guess wad, he's my senior..cos same ite..lol...

then he is will be e one who will make for me honey water..hahahahaha...thanks to my sore throat..lol..my exams coming in like a few days time .wahhhhhhhh...!!!

but hope can cope la...

well here are e updated picture..went jack's place with doris,fabian and louise.

and then with my beloved girls going to X bar on 22nd feb. friday

doris!!

oh oh no fire liao..how?? hahaha

helicia and me!!

helicia,me,michelle,serene

me and grandson!!

spiritually_yours at 7:11 AM

Thursday, March 06, 2008

i saw myself in e mirror.

and this is not i wan to be.

i wanna be e real me.

the real one who never keep things to my beloved baby.

i noe i can do it.

it juz makes me fall when people started consulling all these to me.

it pull down me, but i noe they meant well.

and i will show to them that i will do it.

it juz spoil my reputation.the overall me.
this is not wad i wan to be.

i juz wanna hear one to three words, i understand.
dun have to explain in long details.
i m a girl with few words, and can understand with few words.

i m sick already.dun wanna talk abt it.

thanks for yr concern,appreciated. really ;)

spiritually_yours at 7:39 PM