This is my 370th post!!
Last sat was my 2nd year anniversary with my bf! ^^
we didnt do much celebration as i had to work on that day...and he went lunar with his friends..
haiz came back to fetch me from work..abit seh..zzzz
anyway...
one thing we did i guess was..he combine the photos i and him took last time..
and i went to print it out on sunday afternoon.. =)
we both had one copy each..
I think i treasure this alot..
as whenever i see this photo,
it somehow calms my emotions down.
i wont get too paranoid over stuffs.

the night i told him abt sch life,
he whisper and held me tight and said
"dun worry, u still got me"
my tears about to drop but somehow it stopped.its funny manz.
i felt touched by what he say to me..
baby! i love you!!
Happy 2nd year anniversaryyy~~ !!

Well,its not about whether we celebrate 2nd year together..
but its more of the memories we had..the happy memories.
i muz say,
i do enjoy every moment i spend with my baby.
and the photo captures all those times we had together.
it somehow make me realise that i m not alone.
although army and school may keep us apart,
but seeing this photo brought us closer.
as much as school life is like living hell,
and my baby told me army life also like hell,
we noe that every now and then our heart beat as one..

sound corny right?lol..
better dun say already.

anyway i watch harry potter already.
lol!!
it was so borringg..
zzzz
but i do understand what they saying..
maybe becuz i read the book already.lol..
well come to think of it,
the author is damned smart.
muz have love wizardy like hell..
lol...
the book is much better as we can use our own imagination when we read it..but in the movie,
we see wad they think it is..
in other words,
its other people opinion!lol.....
yawn!! tml big day muz sleep already@@@

nightxx!!

spiritually_yours at 12:55 AM

I had one of the most weirdest and considered romantic dream.
it feels as though i shouldnt wake up...
i dreamt about a guy giving me a purple plastic rose shyly..(and i love purple)
and then i was awaken by the fact that i told him i got bf.. -_-!!
and the funny part was...it was like a rooftop party with singings -__-!!!...and then he give one to my bestie,serene too..but he openly give it to her... a pink rose..
and only persuaded by his friends, then he shyly give it to me.. and i and a few others were standing near the window.
he put it near me and said :"u want this right,take it."and kind of like putting his arm around me and said in a sweet manner..
then i was like..:"ya,dumbass.."lol...
then his friends cheered for him..lol...
and sudddenly he held my hand when we dispair...
and then i woke up replyin to his words.zzzzz

then i wanted to fall back and see wad i dream about again..but then..
no use..
instead i dreamt abt my ex..(i m not going to say who!lol!!)
then somehow felt his warm..but then its awhile only...i not too sure too manz..oh my god...~~!!
i remember calling out for him when someone stole my atm card..lol...(yes i recently lost my atm card!)..then i woke up...

and i cant find the answers to all those dreams tat i have..its like keep repeating in my head...
then now...
haizz....i think i noe le...
here's the answer,

Lover

To see a lover in your dream, symbolizes acceptance, self-worth, and acknowledgement of your true inner value. It may also indicate integration of masculine and feminine traits into yourself. You are feeling complete or whole. Your dream lover may also be someone who is your ideal. The dream could be compensatory for a unsatisfactory or unfulfilling relationship in your real life.

To dream of an old or former lover, signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Your current relationship may be awakening some of those same issues.


oh my god la...
this is so true...
maybe i juz miss the presence of my baby..lol!!
come home soonz!!miss ya~!!

spiritually_yours at 3:41 PM

I m not a toy, neither m i your tool.
M i so undesirable in yr eyes?m i ever transparent in yr eyes?..
besides, we are friends for long...
i m yr friend,and i only juz wan to be yr fren.
why?
why?
why?
wad things i done that makes u hate me so much?
why cant we harmonise.?all i ever ask for is harmony.
but u cant do it.
u cause me to cant do it..
why muz pull me down,pull my pride down..make me feel as though i shouldnt even have enter poly!!
make me feel as though poly is a FUCKING WRONG CHOICE FOR me..

why muz i be so stubborn??
why should i even go poly???
why should i even pleaded with my mom tat i wanaa go poly when obviously i noe they cant afford it.
i m so dumb,so stupid,so stupid to even thought of going poly when i e noe i cant find one true friend!!
i should have juz been working now..

i should juz take a step backward..and offer to help my mom to pay for my sis's uni..
i feel so guilty..so guilty now..can i stop school now??i really wish..
i shouldnt even have continue...this is so messy in my heart now.
my head is spinning..
those hurting words keep spinning in my head.
and my tears juz feel like raindrops.
i cant take it anymore......
tears*

spiritually_yours at 1:27 AM

Hey hey..
i m back.
still sick.lol..sore throat and flu..
i think whoever had heard me,
had probably heard my sexy voice..wahahahahaha
lol...

anyway...the sad thing is.. i got no fever..
i wish i got it!! choy!! *touch wood* lol


well, was lookin at nyp website juz now..
not becuz to check my email..
but check one course.

yes, my path had been drawn out! after poly..i noe wad i wanna do already.
i guess university will had to put on hold.
i wanna get the course i wanted.
specialised diploma in IT security.

call me crazy yes i m.
well, i wanted to take information security..but then i was afraid i cant make it when i applying for poly during my ite years..
so i nv take.
instead.. take the current one..engineering informatics..lol..
sian....lol..

i on da phone.... i will update again soon =)

spiritually_yours at 11:16 PM

Yeah i finally change my music...

Putting all my all time fav songs ^^

Yes, Your call is my best favourite song.
cos its one song that can calm me down when i m down,sad or angry ^^

This is the only song that i will cry my heart out when i sing.
yes i really cry when i sing this song.
and i juz keep hearing,hearing and crying till i got no tears to cry.
and then after tat i feel so much better.its crazy right??..hahha.its true.

Your call is by secondhand seranade, yes its the same band who sang 'Fall for U'
in fact i noe 'your call' before i even noe 'fall for u' lol!!

as for the second song,ENRIQUE IS FUCKING HOT WHEN HE SANG THIS SONG.
did i juz say he HOT?OH YEAAAAH! I DID..HOT~ HOT~HOT~!!
oh manz..his song is lovelyyyy.....whenever i hear this song, i feel high..wahahahaahahaha...

well, i be working at DXO tml..lol..
6-10pm...
had event there..
^^
life is good and great for now..yeah..
juz feeling a lil unwell.. =)

kk gotta go sleep now...ciaozz!!

spiritually_yours at 1:26 AM

This is my 365 blog entry.
cool isnt it??

lol..anyway school's starting tomorrow.
after a week of elearning..
thanks.my head hurts now..too much brain cells killed from too much knowledge...ahhhhh pleaase!!!!

well on sat,
i went lunar with baby,grandson and helicia.
lunar change alot ever since i work there..
my baby had a bottle there..so we went there to finish.
met my ex supervisors..adrian,darren and terry..haha..
then ask my supervisor,adrian drink with us . =)

well music still as good.. its getting better.
and lunar had KTV too..its big man.
met a few of my ex-collegues too..
haha...we managed to finish up the bottle and went back to sleep.

and also past few days..many things had been happening.
maybe now is my recovery period.
i need time on my own to calm down things.
many a times i wanna be alone..and not constantly ask me to cheer up.

if i ever ask u out,
doesnt mean i had already cheered up but it meant i wan people acc me,be there for me at that time.

my dearest louise,
had played tat part...
been there,smoking shisha..!!lol

my dearest grandson and serene,
thanks for been there playing L4D WITh me ^^

somehow people thought tat they knoe me well,
but actually they dun.
you had to noe me well enough to say that.
the ones who know me inside out is my baby, louise,grandson and serene.

school?
currently not anyone yet..yup.
although i noe my dii will
but boy, u still have long way to go to noe me well enough.

i dun care wad others say about me,
becuz it makes life better by not get affected by it.
yup.i used to mind others say abt me,
but now i dun.
cos i noe one day...
juz one day...
they will get their retribution. ^^

sound evil?
ha..too bad!!
its me...
i have a godbro whom i noe for 5years plus plus..
he was the one who intro me to his cheer team.
he is also another one who know me well enough,
even though we didnt meet up much...always chatted online for 5years plus
kind of miss talking him..
guess i was too busy with school...
he being in army now,need to spend time with his gf..
need to cheer.
haiz..if only he noes i miss talking to him.

anyway, i was quite shocked on e day my baby returns back from army.
he bluff me!!
he say 1month later then come back..
then he popped up in my workplace..a week ago
with a rose.
and gave it to me.
i was damned shocked manzx!!
oh manzzz...thanks baby !! its so sweet of u!!!^^

Its so hard to find someone whose character like louise in poly,
someone whom i can confide on,
someone whom i can go crazy with..
someone who shares my woes and worry.
someone who shares my secret.
kind of missssssss yaaaaaaa so much!!!
i m looking forward to the day i m seeing u this week...misssss ya babe~~

ok i better go sleep already nightxx

spiritually_yours at 12:38 AM