I m not a toy, neither m i your tool.
M i so undesirable in yr eyes?m i ever transparent in yr eyes?..
besides, we are friends for long...
i m yr friend,and i only juz wan to be yr fren.
why?
why?
why?
wad things i done that makes u hate me so much?
why cant we harmonise.?all i ever ask for is harmony.
but u cant do it.
u cause me to cant do it..
why muz pull me down,pull my pride down..make me feel as though i shouldnt even have enter poly!!
make me feel as though poly is a FUCKING WRONG CHOICE FOR me..
why muz i be so stubborn??
why should i even go poly???
why should i even pleaded with my mom tat i wanaa go poly when obviously i noe they cant afford it.
i m so dumb,so stupid,so stupid to even thought of going poly when i e noe i cant find one true friend!!
i should have juz been working now..
i should juz take a step backward..and offer to help my mom to pay for my sis's uni..
i feel so guilty..so guilty now..can i stop school now??i really wish..
i shouldnt even have continue...this is so messy in my heart now.
my head is spinning..
those hurting words keep spinning in my head.
and my tears juz feel like raindrops.
i cant take it anymore......
tears*
